~=[with faith comes hope]=~

2010-01-14T12:59:00.001+08:00

独送昏暗不离的风回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字
心还跳动却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择但思念还转动
不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔
当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择又不仅是尊重
不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔
不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

2009-11-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

i m suppose to be doin my jap, memorising my jap. and i actually suddenly have alot of other things to be done too. I realise a trend. I tend to blog when i m busy, and when i m not suppose to be blogging. This is the reason why i haven been blogging for a long time. LOL. and, finally i have my msn back to nomal. bye ebuddy. YOu have been a nice buddy. I ll use you once in a while. haha! btw, i m actually bored of tv and shows. When you have too much of something, you really will get bored of it. I think i more interested in Straits Times. and i gonna read zaobao.com soon to improve my china as well. as for my jap, i think i ll stick to liar game and galileo etc etc..haha!

2009-10-03T12:33:00.002+08:00

I dont think I m suited to a marketing job. Really. I know, its only been one month, and I have not been exactly extremely involved in my job. But i kinda think that way. COz in a way, i really dont think I m suited for an office. I like running around, sweating it out when I m on the job. When I go on mel to read what other people are doing, it looks tough AND fun...

Come to think of it, I am kinda suited for the tourism industry. Long hours, low pay. My kind of fun. HA! no wonder Ms Ong say I m sadistic...LOL..

This really puts more thought now that I uni is virtually knocking on my door. I really cant imagine myself stuck in the office, going through all the paper work and growing fatter every second I sit at my desk. How do OLs even maintain their figure. I m starting to admire their metabolism.

What kinda job dont require me to stay at the same place all the time?

hahahahahahaha...go sell insurance, or sell house, always have to run around.LOLOLOLOL...but i dont like that job. LOLOLOL...

really wonder.........

*off to go shower! meeting polly and che!!

2009-08-12T13:50:00.001+08:00

just realised that my previous post. really really kinda emo ehhh...but nahhh...me totally done and over with that. Let's not sweat the small stuff. ha! sweat the BIG stuff!!! for example.........sqtr due on fri. which i still haven started!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so get me outta here. now for a gd reason!!

2009-08-08T21:19:00.002+08:00

I totally detest (since i cant say hate, detest is the furtherest i can go) this semester. actually, cant really say is this semester. i just totally DETEST the person I have become this semester. i am such a total asshole this semester. all the stupid i have this semester. all the different people i have angered. all have a valid reason. all the things that i have chosen to do this semester. all the super STUPID mistakes that i have made, and things i am continuing to do. I just wanna get out of here, create a new me for myself.

pls just get me outa myself.

2009-08-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

i m soooooooooo freaking messed up.
Just when you thot PT is over, some SUPER IRRITATING things pop up. Like the fact that my laptop was still working just fine ytd, today, my earphones jack has problems. There's this super irritating buzzing sound which JUST CANNOT be FIxED. SOOOOOOOOOO irritating. and everyone at hm is pissed of. So am i. And my home internet is screwed. only have local connection but not internet. So if you wanna know how i m blogging. **I m tapping on some kind soul's internet. THANK YOU GOD for still providing. Coz i really needed to d/l SQTR's slides. BUT, how am i going to do SQTR project without internet? UM...go to sch everyday? Even on monday?? wad bout tmr? ITS DAMN irritating. ALOT of stupid problems. and i thot my morningmares are over.

And there are sooooooooo many freaking things happening. let me pose this qns. If you know that there's a prob with one of ur friends, do you try to change that person for the better, or whole heartedly accept him/her for who he/she really is??

There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
1 Corinthians 10:13

2009-08-04T14:30:00.001+08:00

YAY!!!! I M GOING ON HOLIDAY!!! ant its not mlysia this time! whoo hooo!! going after natas fair, before internship!! 5 days! at least! I m SOOOOOOOO getting outta this world! but only to macau, hk and zhu hai. which is so weird considering the fact that i m suppose to go there for the unheld sch trip. LOL!!

BUT HU CARES?!?!
its freaking OUTA SINGAPORE!!!!!

2009-07-31T11:44:00.002+08:00

read the blog of a v dear friend of mine.

hiaz...sometimes i wonder, izzit even gd to start getting into a couple thing. coz ppl get used to doing things in 2s. i know its easier and there's always a company. I totally understand. Like the fact that it would be nice to have somebody come down to have dinner with me when i had to stay late for various reasons and there was no dinner at hm.

BUT. on the brighter note, as long as you have really gd friends, its about the same. haha!
thanks to S. i had a nice canteen2 chicken rice lunch brought all the way to me when i was rushing wisp reflection at the underpass!! yays. totally miss canteen2 stuff. and thanks to B who helped me read thru my wisp reflection in 10mins. ha! while i was queuing to print. and to XF for even coming down to accompany me thru the horrendous printing turmoil and handing in after she had hers settled. Thank GoD for great friends.

And ariana. you shld stop being selfish. after seeing how great friends you have who do nice stuff for you. i realise, i m kinda a calculating person. like wad ash said before. that i calculate my every move. the pros and cons of things before doing them. Think about it. I kinda do it. more than i d like to. i realise, for some friends, i do calculate abit. to others, i kinda just give them everything. weird. hmmm..i shld really rethink. and.....its now 1156!! time to do RMTR!!

Praying for inspiration and concentration! AMEN!

2009-07-31T11:27:00.003+08:00

I wanna blog, i dun wanna do RMTR reflection. But i have to do!! coz no other time to do le!! wahhhh..i ll go do it at 12. Really. at 12. haha..so i can crap and slack here first. actually i know what i can do. haha...i can start formulating what i wanna write..

and i busy chatting. hahahahahaha....

i wan go fop today!! my first time going ehhh...so i hv to finish RMTR now!!!!!!! wahhhhhhhhhhh

2009-07-30T09:25:00.001+08:00

good news: Greek's new trailer is out.
bad news: i m trying to kick my addiction to videos. Damn annoying. I constantly have to keep watching tv. no show oso will find show to watch. Im addicted. I know! damn.......in the past i just enjoy it, its now like i HAVE to watch. which is NOT right. wahhhhhhhh... and WISP reflection is due in 3 hrs. and i only have an empty paper!!

2009-07-23T12:00:00.002+08:00

My soft spot for guitar never seems to fade. Always get killed my guitars...

man..makes me miss my piano as well. i think i love the sound of guitar more then piano. BUT i d nvr learn the guitar. Coz i firmly believe that guitar should be played by guys to melt the hearts of girls.

My 2 biggest time investment other the studies in uni= dance & piano.

Really. I m gonna quit events and busy lifestyle. Im getting back into arts.

Dun laugh, dun look in that weird manner I know you are.

I will. You just seat and watch.

2009-07-17T14:12:00.001+08:00

need to blog. Before i can fully concentrate on doing PT. really really really speechless. I have been wasting so much time, not doing stuff at my full potential. why do i get As in yr 1 and Cs in yr 3? coz i ve taken exams for granted, taken studying forgranted. and videos became an ADDICTION. not enjoyment, addiction. I can totally feel it. the last time, i quit facebook games, so that i ll stop wasting time. And it seems that videos are addictive. so gotta stop. I hv come so far to keick away fb games addiction. I can do it too for videos. with GoD's help.

Anything is possible with GoD. not me.

2009-06-11T14:58:00.002+08:00

i m suppose to do m RMTR. which i know i may be haughty to think that i should be relatively easy to do. But yar. I m not starting yet. Why? coz i cant focus. my mind's wondering. practically flying away from me. So many things keep happening thsi few days, these few weeks. And actually, since this sem started. Made me start to think. I miss blogging. coz blogging helps me clear my thots, helps me reflect as i type. But, haven been able to do so.

Its tough. This sem is tough. But i can cope. so far. But, besides coping with everything that's thrown to me. I start thinking. Is this what i want to do? Why am I doing all these stuff? I mean we always have a choice to do things. So why choose to do things that doesnt make you happy when you do it? Or did i think that those choices that i made would make me happy? Now i m lost. Or izzit just that i m not doing what GoD wants me to do. Thus, this result.

But i know 1 thing. If you have chose to do so, you gotta take responsibility of your choice and go all the way with your choice.

I learnt that, you shouldnt do things for the sake of doing, choosing things for material reasons but always ask, would GoD be happy if i do this, then, would i be happy when i do this.

BUT, then again, sometimes, GoD gives us things that we don't like either. HIAZ..........

Luckily. ¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

I just wanna stop making bad decisions, stop doing what i m not suppose to do. stop doing the wrong things, stop disappointing others, stop not living up to expectations, sto making people angry, stop making people upset.

Start loving GoD, start loving people, start loving myself.

2009-05-01T10:57:00.002+08:00

THe previous post is what eva i typed on Monday right after TRMK, truthfully, was really impacted. coz realize that what i thought really may not be the best. THus, cozing mag they all to be angry and all, and also thaslim and jaslyn, coz break them up. hiaz.. all the mistakes that i
made this week.

Including making Ms Ng disappointed in us. and it's like, Ms Ng has always supported our class, but we disappointed her. Which really impacts me so much more. We were really... ... im at a lost for words.

I just really want to keep the peace, to make sure that everything is balenced out and to keep as many people as possible happy. Not for my own gains but for the class. But as what i ve said, there maybe other solutions that i have over looked. for that, I have to APOLOGISE TO TR01.

But really, thank you yw and carrie for standing up for me. and to carrie, i know. you're right. live with it. i wun say, its easy for you to say, but rather, i ll live with what i have chosen to do and take up. and, as what i have always believed but sometimes forget, still think the best leaders, are the servant leaders. which leads to below.

All these makes me think back about me being a leader. and just nice, art of war was talking bout leadership too. and i started reflecting, where was i? which level am i at? Was i too fickle, not strong enough to make the decision, not strong enough to lead, not decisive, that's why our class was so chaotic? I really have no idea which level am i, and what should be better, as mentioned before (keep the peace). and i guess, everything came down to 1 thing. i really felt kinda tired about leading. and then this reminds me of the conversation that i had with eliza. What's the point of doing so much, leading so much? What's the main objective. If its all about the aims and things driven, sooner or later we'll get really tired. Which truthfully, I am. But if its for GoD, if i do it not for resumes, not for socializing, but for GoD. Sincerely, I love doing it. It's really kinda natural for me to do so all the time. So yar, i need to go back to the basis of WHY i' m doing it. Because, at the
end of the day, if the proj is good, if an event is sucessful, i shouldnt want people to say, hey ariana, good job, but its because of the God, the the event was so smooth! Glory to GoD! LOL. and daddy oso said something to me to..that it's ok that your reason to do things are coz of results or coz you love them, as long as you just give thanks for everything. haha..

And i m sure, i ll then NOT feel tired, and also be able to do what i love and what i m good at.
Thank GoD for bringing me so far, and thank GoD for keeping His promises.

haha..my post is kinda jumble, type the top,the bottom, then the middle then the bottom and all. but was really trying to show what i want to tell. so yar!

love ya mummy and daddy. i know you're kinda worried. thanks for everything!!! i will jia you de!!

to yw: hope its entertaining enuff! haha

2009-04-27T14:54:00.003+08:00

ha! I m blogging during TRMK, even though its one of the toughest module, coz of tough tutorial and stuff. But really kinda need to rant abit. Thank GoD for nice classmates who are understanding, and also for classmates who say this right out loud so that there would be no back stabbing.
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Weird thinking now. Just read somebody's blog whose situation is so much worst then mine, feeling so sad for her...How can I even think of myself ?
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All I can say is that I really want to be the person that eliza prayed for me to be. And just after she prayed for me, I was thrown into such a situation. The fact that I really tried my best to make people happy and keep the peace, and try to make the pros and cons weigh out, I guess, people view things in different light. And there's one thing I really forgot. That not everyone sees the way you do. and you cant force ppl to see that way you want them to. SHUCKS. i totally forgot about that. What i think is the best, may not be viewed the same way. DAMN. I am soooooo sorry. And i guess, this time I was selfish. I could have went over, or yw cld have went over, or even other ways. But i really wanted this grouping. I can justify that I deserved this grp because other groups can stick, why cant I, or I asked them and thot long term long ago and asked, so I deserve it. BUT, WHAT DID ELIZA JUST TAUGHT ME?!? and what did i tell ash just last week? that I would so much want to be selfless then selfish. then what did i just do?!? be selfish. (damn, ash, i hang out with you too much alrdy..jkjk) hiaz. What can I do to save the situation or clear the mess?
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and haha..yw did say something. I used to be nice. I like being nice. And I can glorify GoD by being nice. but was i nice just now? it s so much easier to get things done by not being nice. But i that is just not doing things the right way.

That's the post that i written on monday right after TRMK.

2009-03-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

acutally wanted to blog in chinese. But sadly, i didnt d/l writting. or at least, i dunoe how to activate chinese writting. kinda annoying when i need it. but after activating it, it always affects my fonts. dun really like that.

anw, its been a looooooooong time since i blogged. and funny thing is, i normally love to blog during exam periods. but this time, i didnt blog a single time during study week or exam periods, but rather, its alrdy hols. normally, i wldnt even be blogging at such times. and really, i am busy. tmr i have a full day with 2 jobs at hand, and even more jobs in the weekends. nxt wk wld be busy with envoys stuff. and maybe another event in the week end that i would have to work. then after that, would be another camp. see. busy busy full schedule. and than i check back. after my busy schedule, its the release of results. sooooo fast. exam results and competition results. I would really pray for the best.

hiazzzzz..abit ~~~

will be back ltr

2009-01-23T15:32:00.002+08:00

There is actually no such thing as luck. If you didnt realize. Coz if there was such a thing as luck, where does luck comes from? Funny isnt it? Funny that people of almost ALL religion, or let's just say, free thinkers, ALL believe in luck! hmmm.. accordingly, people would say luck comes from that lady luck, or some would say, if you do go things, luck would be besttowed upon you. Then again, who would besttow that luck? haven anyone thot of that qns before?

So conclusion beinging that, there is no such thing as luck. and yet as i m a christian, i would like to say that, how can there be such a thing as luck to control things around you, when all things are in GoD's control, unless GoD has changed His name to Luck, i guess, luck doesnt exsist at all! ha!

and why am i blogging bout this all of a sudden anw? haha..coz someone just wished me gd luck. But i think, it is kinda rude to shoot that person (that i m not tt close to) in the face--" there's no such thing as luck" when that person is wishing me that in good will. but oh wells. let me get back and finish ECD, so that i can have a nice CNY!!

2009-01-19T09:44:00.003+08:00

any, so it goes, i cant view my blog, coz of some blocking thing. But nvm, at least i can still view it through this freaking cool web called hidemyass. ha! funny. but, nvm.

had not a very productive weekend, but not that bad. at least i did something. InE. the questions, the Journal, both AnB. be proud of me man! And also, managed to squeeze in time to go visit the kovan bazzar. and cheated a free lunch from gor. haha.. BUT, i didnt do some other stuff that i shld do. like TUTORIALS... i think its been a million years since i hv done tutorials. really guilty. maybe that's the reason why i didnt do well for this sem.

shucks, totally forgot bout Tlaw presentation. how shld i cram that with ECD proposal. darn, i shld have started on ECD. i reallt should!!! and ltr, going to gv tution, finally going to get myself a job. i shld really work more too. oh yar, i nd to get a boost on community service. have you seen the uni enterence stuff? i m totally lack in that part. zzzzz

2009-01-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

testing of my blog. i cant see my own blog!

2009-01-14T12:13:00.002+08:00

i m suppose to be studying for ECD that will happen in about 5 hours time. And truth be told, i still have 3 chapts not touched. and the other 5 i haven really studied yet either. But i really have things to say. And if given time, i think i would be able to write out a really long post which i know that i wouldnt coz i should be studying. But that said, let me get back to the main reason why i m here and not studying.

Open house is OVER!!!WOOHOO!! super happy. coz, another big burden down. We have handed in TLAW proj!! another one down. JAp written test is OVER!!! (even though i may just scrap a C for it), and.........i just got over with the interview for CaliforniaC. it was super scary. and i think mine was really pretty short. sad, i would really rather they let me talk more. the topics were kinda tough, really. Hmm..rasmus got the one on the recent MP assulted, rastus got the topic on Obama. yi biao got on healthcare services in Singapore. And me.........I got on thailand's political situations. Ha! In the current political turmoil, what should be the best situation for thailand? ha! you tell me..

while you're at it, let me get back to ecd, and i ll blog about it after i get rid of the second last burden. (ecd proj being the last)...THAN ITS EXAMS>....and HOLIDAYS!!!! WooHooo!!!

2009-01-06T10:39:00.001+08:00

upset, super upset. And, i m offically giving up all cca and activities commitment. Really. Believe me. I m going to become a go sch, go home girl. SUper upset. my gpa is dying. this time confirm die. Still have ecd nxt wk. and jap. die.

and tlaw proj. How?!?!?!?!

die le.

2009-01-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

so emo... so sian. so not in a good mood. as in, i m not upset or angry or wad. i ll rather be angry that like this. i d rather have a strong emotion. v, i know what's the word! down cast!

you mei you ren, ke yi lai pei wo ma?

2008-12-26T20:30:00.002+08:00

Its 10 minutes to 9pm. Which is actually my daily dose of the little nonya. A show that i seriously think is relatively horrible, but i still continue watching. Funny me. But, i think i shall spare myself that misery today by giving it a miss and staying in my room, trying to start on my projects.
I still have tlaw that is going to be due so very soon, and ecd, which has a huge work load that i put upon myself. shucks. So much to do, so little time. Especially if i want to go out next week! and i still added on extra but fun burden on myself for agreeing to help in Chingay this yr. But there's still Open House to worry about before that. And when everything all happen, again i ask myself again. "Why am i doing all this to kill myself? Why oh why am i like that."
I just watched The Holiday, a 2006 christmas movie. Really quite nice. I think a person like me would really appreciate it. It gives people hope. Hope for all the things in life. And that some times, all we need is a change. But the thing with me, is that I AM constantly having different and new things in my life, i also constantly meet new people. So when having change becomes a habit and a part of your life, what then would be considered a change? To stop having changes?

What am i looking for?

2008-12-20T14:28:00.002+08:00

Haven done much proj work, but i WILL be starting once i finish this comment part. i normally like to post longer post, but its been short these few days with the rush of time and me constantly unable to pull self control and constantly falling into the traps of movies and serials and what nots. So here's what, i just caught bout nearly 30mins of twilight online. and..... it was bad. maybe its because of my lack of patience of something like that. but it was horrible. as it, it was draggy, nothing was happening, edward's acting skills were bad, especially the part of the first biology class and the part where i hoped that would kill the boring-ness i.e the almost car crash part,was sooooo UN-HAPPENING!!! nothing happened. and, the bella-edward combination, is just weird. the movie made the book seem dull and boring which is a TOTAL INSULT to such a great series.

BUT, i only watched 30 minutes of the show, not in the cinema. So, as usual, i ll give it the benefit of the doubt, and hit the cinemas soon. And then, see if the movie can redeem itself.

Yuck.

2008-12-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

suddenly, as i read quite a few blogs, everyone is reflecting. I guess, its that time of the year again hur. I would also like to reflect, think through stuff, and enjoy all that has passed. BUT!!!!!!!! I do not have the luxury of time to do so. In the mean time, let me go hurry and finish up work. Then MAYBE, only maybe, i may have time to reflect and blog.

2008-12-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

yay! i found the place where i can change the colour and font size of blogging. I was actually on edit html tab, so couldnt get those, finally back on compose page.

hmmmm..why am i blogging? COZ i m BORED!!! acutally, i can do something productive like ECD proj, and the survey that i have yet to do up. or maybe start thinking of how to start tlaw. so much work to be done in the hols. and i still have trm after party with i have NO idea if i shld go or not, and then there's jean jie's bdae. than, crusade xmas party. AND, i still wanna meet up, chill have fun with che,polly,yx. AND lyn who will be back on the 19th!!!!!! i SOOOOO cant wait. the best would be that i finish all that i need to before 19th. then we can have like girl's slumber party or something like that! LOL..

yay.. i m actually looking forward to hols.

oh yar, i cut my hair. AGAIN. and now i think i look like ah wang. seriously. hahahahaha..oh wells.
at least i know i shouldnt do this again. haha..and i got a new hp. samsung s7330.not that bad larr..BUT, my ultimate xmas wish is an IPOD TOUCH!!!..if anyone is feeling santa-ish, or just wanna give somebody something......GET ME AN IPOD TOUCH!!!!!

Lol..

siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

2008-12-03T16:40:00.002+08:00

You know what? i just have an all new discovery. After watching so many programmes, reading so many novels, i m making use of all the knowledge to write something interesting. LOL.

People who watch alot of shows, try recalling, how many shows are there that have the best friend become couple thingy? ALOT. Then think, how many are there where by the girl realise first and how many whereby the guy realises first. (meaning like, the guy/girl bestfriend still cont. to act as good friends even though they like the other party). Its always like this.
BUT!!! Do you realise, if the girl is the one who cont to act as friends, they are always potrayed in the bad light. Meaning they would be the bad person, who acts nice, but ends up schemeing and making a mess of things and everyone ends up hating them. (or at least, no one wishes the guy would get with her).
YET, if the guy is the one who cont to act as friends, the guy would always be mister nice guy, hlping the girl get the other guy that she wants, and always have emo sides where hs struggles in confessing and yet have that famous line-"i d be happy as long as she's happy". Then everyone would go..."awwwww.....That girl is SO blind! she should go with her best guy friend instead of the other person."

Yes, i know there are exceptions, but if you look back on statistics, its normally the case as i ve mentioned.

Next, in this kinda girl/guy best friend cases, ultimately, when the "blind" party who all along didnt know, until in the end they somehow find out, who do you think will normally get the best friend they have been pinning on for that long long time?

THE GUY!!..its always like that. After all that emo-ing, all that helping their girl best friend, being Mr Nice guy, the girl will "ultimately realise" that the guy is "all she ever wanted in the first place".

Yet, if the girl is the one, even though sometimes girl best friend is portrayed in a good light, they will STILL NOT get the guy. The guy will like, we ll still always be friends, or find another guy for that girl, or that girl just leaves it all.

I m not biased! Let me give you example. How bout the famous hollywood, julia robert's [My best friend's wedding], then we shall have the asian dramas (kr, tw, jap)- shucks! i forgot what is the name of those dramas. but trust me, there are so many! like ai qing mi ma, and last friends, as for taiwan, there are MILLIONS. like the famous, MVP, also have as a sub plot, then there is hai tun wan oso and the now showing bu liang xiao hua. then kr, i rmb, wo ai jing sam soon, where the guy gets the girl etc etc.....

Even Spore drama follows that plot/storyline.
If you can rmb more, can always tag my blog! i ll try to reply. (haha!)

Is this the "guy is always more superior" case?
darnnnn.....
Then again, they always say tv always protray what is in real life, just more exaggerated. Hmmmmmmm............

gets me thinking......

BUT i should be thinking bout TLAW and HBM now!!!!!

tata~

2008-12-02T10:13:00.006+08:00

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走
某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后

带走我一个人自转的寂寞

带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后

带走我一个人自转的寂寞

带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨 wo~~
蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏...

带我走到遥远的以后

带走我一个人自转的寂寞

带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走

带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫 wo~~
带我走... ...
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i wanted to type this last time, just that couldnt find the colour to hide it,
so this is an edit.

this song is actually from bu liang xiao hua,
but, v meaningful ehh.. i dont know when i ll ever be ready.
wo her shi cai bu hui pa ne?
wo shen ming hui chu xian rang wo zhe yang xiang de ren ma?

2008-12-01T10:54:00.001+08:00

Acually, i did this quiz the same time as the previous one, just that, as usual, no internet. but here it is! LOL

2nd quiz! fun! an escape fom studying! bye bye As and ADs!

The Letter A
Are you available?: I m not attached
What is your age?: 18
What annoys you?: My procrastination

Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: Big for 3 ppl.
When is your birthday?: 3rd july 1990
Who is your best friend?: zzzzzz

Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: I like jelly beans
Who's your crush?: hmm..now dun have bahh
When was the last time you cried?: Cant remember. seriously.

The Letter D
Do you daydream? Not really. I think i THINK more.
What's your favorite kind of dog?: jack russel!
What day of the week is it?: Sat

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: Scrambled
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Haven had a chance
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: nothing is easy. But i guess, to me reading is the easiest.

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: Duh.
Do you use fly swatters?: Nope.
Have you ever used a foghorn?: Wads that

The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: Singapore dun allow
Are you a giver or a taker?: Depends on the status.
Do you like gummy candies?: Yupps!

The Letter H
How are you?: Sianed
What color is your hair?: multi colour. red, brown, white, black, yellow.

The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream?: I like soberts
Have you ever ice skated?: Haven!!!
Do you play an instrument?: Piano. i like to "play" ard with guitar some times.

The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: I forgot. the one from cocoa beans is nice. But i oso like the jap brand easilt bought.
Do you wear jewelry?: necklass. But i change it according to what i m wearing

The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: Killing is sinning
Do you want kids?: ehhhh.. yarr..
Where did you go for kindergarten?: PAP lorr..

The Letter L
Are you laid back?: Not really
Do you lie?: Ha. yupps. Too often for my own liking

The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: Too many to list. ehh..But i love Star Wars, LOTR, POTC.
Do you still watch Disney movies?: YESSSS.. Disney FAN!!
Do you like mangos?: Dried

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: ari, rui
What is your real name?: Ariana Tan Rui Min
Whats your favorite number?: 2
Do you prefer night over day?: Yupps.

The Letter O
What's your one wish?: To please GoD and my parents
Are you an only child?: YAr.

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: That I cant please GoD and my parents
What are your pet peeves?: Hmm..people dragging time.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: Patience. Tolerance. ( Coz i m super annoying)

The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote?: act blur live longer! ha!
Are you quick to judge people?: Benefit of doubt...

The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: not ALWAYS larr
Are you one to cry?: Nope, I d rather think of solutions

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Rain
Do you like snow?: Yupps
What's your favorite season?: Spring

The Letter T
What time is it?: 2321
What time did you wake up?: 0934
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: Canot rmb ehhh

The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: Duh
Underwear or boxers?: I m a gal

The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: Purple brinjal
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Orlando, Florida

The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: ask ppl around me
Where do you live?: Sengkang
What's your worst fear?: Disappointment

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: nope
Have you seen the x-games?: Wads that?
Do you own a xylophone?: Nope

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: least fav colour
What's one thing you yearn for?: Right now, Ipod touch

The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?: Cancer
Do you believe in the zodiac?: I believe in GoD
Favorite zoo animal?: beavers! v cute, v fast, v intelligent

2008-11-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

suddenly feel like doing. ha!

1. What is your full name?
Ariana Tan Rui Min

2. Are you single?
Duh..

3. What is your favourite number[s]?
I love number 2, dunoe why. I appreciate no.7, coz it's GoD's number. and for some unknown reason, i like 28 too.

4.What is/are your favourite colour?
RED!!! ha.. i use to like pink more. But now i prefer a stronger, bolder colour

5.Least favourite colour[s]?
hmmm..yellow. ha! yellow yellow dirty fellow

6.What are you thinking now?
Why am i NOT studying yet!!!

7. Are you happy with your life right now?
I always aim to be happy with my life.

8.What are your favourite subjects in school?
Bstats. Duh. I like econs too. I still like maths more.

9. Do you shop at malls?
Normally every wkend with my parents after church.

10.Where do you wish to be right now?
Out chilling with close friends

11. What should you be doing now?
Studying for CTs!

12.Do you have any crush on anyone?
Ha!

13.When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
FOX pullover for gor. the last day of red camp, fri.

14. What was the last thing you drank?
Soup! Home cooked by lao ma!

15. Do you hate liars? Do you hate backstabbers?
Liars, hard to say I hate them, coz i lie. (I know its sin no matter how justified it is)
Backstabbers, I somehow have come to see that it is part and parcel of life, especially in the future business world.

16. Can you make yourself sneeze?
Yar. NP. besides, i have sinus.

17. Do you fall for people easily?
Definitely NOT. so darn hard larr!! i wan oso dunoe how.

18. What does your last text msg read?
"Hellow. I think i sent this sms just now. But some never receive. So i just send again. If you want help prepare food ten thirty at bedok mrt,if not 12pm at area c.Pit12 :)see u. Bring whatever you wan." --Super long msg frm GJH

19. Are you too forgiving?
YES. I ll act dao, get irritated and grumble alot, but in the end, no matter what, i ll still forgive. in about a day plus. max.

20.How many windows are open on your computer?
4! i m surprised, normally have alot more

21.Who was your last call from?
Yong Liang. Bout cocoa trees and OH

22.What do you do with most of your time?
Watch movies, series (US, TW, KR, JAP)etc, read manga, read books, chat online, plan stuff

23.Will you & your ex get back again?
No ex, how to get back?

24.Do you sleep with the TV on?
No tv in my room

25. Which of your close friends live the closest?
Ehhh...shld be gor. kovan nearer than amk.

26.Which item could you not live without during the day?
food!

27. Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Can, not a problem. I drink frm random ppl's water bottles during events and I share drinks with so many ppl in daily life anw.

28.How was your weekend?
Slack! damn. I shld be studying now too

29.Do you believe ex[s] can be friends?
Can. But it doesnt just happen with a snap of the fingers.

30. The last person you quarrelled with?
Lao ma lorrrr.. at home only have lao ma and lao pa wad..

31.The way to win your heart?
I have no idea. I would want to know too.
But i dont mind someone getting me an ipod touch and MORE eyores!

32.What did you do last night?
Watched tv. duh

33. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope. My name is ARIANA ehhh...

34.Are you looking for a boyf/girlf?
I guess not really. I wouldnt wanna torture anyone.
But i take things naturally. If it comes, it does. If not, God has His plans.

35.One song that is meaningful to you?
Say Goodbye-Chris Brown.
Not that it applies in my life, but its one song that i read the lyrics that is really gd.

36.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
Twirl.

37.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
haha. When is at the last bit and i know i can finish it

38.How long is your hair?
Above my shoulder! I dont want my hair style to grow out!!!

39.Do you like batman?
Not too bad.

40.Who was the last person who told you that they love you?
hhmmmm...come to think of it. Dun have ehh...

41.When was the last time you sang out loud?
Cant remember the exact last time. But i was singing during red camp and i went party world after red camp too.

42.What did you have for breakfast?
YAM BAO!! and dao sar bia!
v nice!

43.Is your birthday on a holiday?
Some times if i m lucky, its youth day.

44.Can you cook?
Yupps. not too bad.

45.Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
It was my dad's

46.What was the reason for the last troubles you were in?
The change of rooms for OH lorr..

47.which do you wear more? sweats 0r jeans.
Jeans. Heads down

48. When is your birthday?
3 July 1990! =)

49. Do you swear alot?
Used too. ehhh..when its event day, i may..trying to kick the habit though

50. What was your first achololic drink?
Red wine. At home.

51.Do you have any regrets?
Definetly. But i wont look back on them. (after a few days la)

52. Who would you like to see now?
hmmm...angelyn? I miss her..(faster come back frm korea lar!)

53.Have the cops ever come to your house?
Ehhhh...secret

54. Are you a social or anti-social person?
More social. I talk too much. I love networking anw.

55.Who are your best friends? Are you still friends with them?
I use to have a best friend v v v long ago, now we rarely talk. I guess its coz we're in diff class, then schs and stuff.
But I thank GoD for all my other best friends that i have now!

56. Ever been in love?
No. never.

57. Ever had braces?
Nope. but lao ma have been thinking if i shld.

58. What do you wear to bed?
Big baggy shirts!

59.Who was the last person who disappointed you?
Cant really remember.

60. Do you trust people?
I like to give ppl the benefit of the doubt.

61. Who was the first person you talk to today?
Lao ma lor.

62. Who was the first person who text you today?
che-mummy! =) love her!

63. what was the first thing you did today?
open my eyes. and see lao ma right above me.

64.Ten people to tag:
I dont really know who reads my blog..

btw, quiz is frm yw's blog! haha

2008-11-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

i m doing jap homework at underpass now. My favourite hang out place in NP. nvr like other places as much as here. nice to be along with a big table, with enough space all my random stuff. AND the best thing is that it s not as cold as ourspace and other air conditioned places. AND its comfortable to sit cross legged here. abit emo actually. hmmm..not emo lar, i guess tired would be the right word to use. I so wanna go home, sleep. have a gd rest, then do work. AND STUDy. so much to study. SPM, TLAW, HBM, TDM!!! then after that, its hols!!! not alot to look forward too except coming to sch v often for OH meetings (TRM n Envoys), Tlaw proj and of course, ECD. I think ECD would be easy, just that there's abit to do. plan, then start on the surveys etc etc, but doing, should be easy. Oh yar, dont forget HBM's individual. still dunoe what's that bout. stupid SANDS.

ANd for the LAST time! i m not stressed. I m really not. so many things is over, i m really not stressed. Just tired. and i nd to lock myself at a corner and STUDY. and i would love to have quality time with my gals over nice nice sweets and i MISS angelyn more then eva, even though if she was in spore i oso wun see her often, but its just diff now that she's away. and so is mummy. darnnnn...

and i dunoe why, its like, sometimes when ppl wanna chat, catch up, why cant i be the listener at times? YES, i love to talk, i love to chat, but sometimes, i dont have much to say, and i ll rather listen. I really would. i wanna stop being selfish and start listening to others and hear them out. but.....

i dunoe larr.. yawns. i wanna slp! back to jap, back in a while
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back from jap, and i still have bout 10 more mins for me to type a lil more, slack a lil more, pack up, and get my butt up to lvl 3 of blk 56. tmr is gonna be another okay day. but i feel like doing something more. hmmmmmm..how bout i go to NTU tmr? how does that sound?

2008-11-09T22:00:00.003+08:00

blogging blogging. AND not doing homework! not studying! hiazzzzzz...slack so much during the weekend. didnt do anything productive as the workload weights down heavier and heavier.

thank you GoD for giving me back that gift of the gab. For taking away the writer's block. For allowing me to crap.

2008-11-06T20:02:00.002+08:00

EMO!!reason why? coz i read the posts of my friends in jc, taking A levels. omg, i feel sooo guilty not feeling and sharing their pain.. and i thank GoD that i m in poly and not jc. 1 more extra yr is definitely worth it.. and in this extra yr, i m having fun, learning so much bout the real world, and maybe going overseas to work.

I hope that my jc friends dont give up on the strenuous exam. Really wanna wish them the best for A levels. after the 18 Nov, they ll be free!! and waiting for uni entrance. i know they can do it!!! JIA YOU guys!!!!

and then. you can ask, why do i have so much time to blog hop?coz i m home the whole day. doctor's orders. slight fever, the usual flu and really bad throat. all this because i went to donate blood! funny isnt it. and you thought the blood donation story was long over. LOL. if you guys haven heard frm xf's blog, the nurse had a real hard time finding my vein, she poked and proded my veins like 4 times. during the last 2 times, i think the numbness medication was gone. i could feel the needing changing angles as she pulled the needle in and out. eeks. and she continuously nagged at me to pump the squishy ball. my arm to strength lar!!! so in the end, i could only fill bout 1/2 the pack, she asked for me to stop!!...hiaz..so eventful, xf also didnt finish donating a full pack. disappointing.

and when we thot that episode was over, i started feeling uncomfortable in the weekends, and starting to get really sick on tue. yupps. went to the docs, he told me tt ppl that donate blood for the first time, may get ill and stuff. coz the body's not used to disruptions and such stuff. that the body is traumatized. so you get ill when you body protest. ha! so yupps. lesson learnt!

2008-10-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

blogging. again. since when do i blog so often? oh yar, since i do not feel like doing anything else. i m at crusade room. again. keep coming here these few days. lets see what else do i still need to do. I have finished InE qns, but i still have 2 Cocoa trees report to do. and of course. TDM. something that i have been advoiding. I can also start on SPM and HBM tutorial 3. and my jap homework and spelling test. and SPM newsbites. and ECD proj. see.. there's so much to do. but ariana. being a pig. is living in denial!!!! shake head shake head. I shall attempt to finish my 2 other cocoa trees report. so that it would not be nagging down on me. Then, see if i have mood for TDM. If not, i may see if there are other things...ha ha ha..

and, people relations.........

2008-10-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

just did spm's art culture thing. could see that Mrs Lim was really quite disappointed with the class. thought through the art piece. realised time and again that i can really be an art person. As in, i like to see behind the art pieces, kinda decipher what the artist wanted to express. but oh wells.

really kinda sian. I have InE to do, and 3 cocoa trees report to do, and of course, TDM tutorial. but i m not doing. i m blogging. Doing everything that i can to avoid doing work. irresponsible. BUT, irresponsible against myself.

Responsibility, Commitment, Faith. Big words. Easy to comprehend, Hard to shoulder.
these 3 words weigh down alot on me nowadays. Realised that the older you grow, the more these words become attached to you. like glue. like that company you never wanted. Yet, even though i know its tough, i still wanna stick to it. can bear to tear away from them. Coz, partially in me, i know its the right thing to do. and i also know that, if i can accomplish, its not me. Its GoD. and hopefully, he ll be proud of me then.

dunoe what to say.

2008-10-28T00:45:00.002+08:00

boohoo hoo..its late. i just finished tlaw tutorial. and only my part. its tough. revised tlaw. ha! i feel so hardworking. but i wasted alot of time before starting. i really have to wonder who long can this last. i m tired. really. like really. of all the mess that has been going on in my life now, i m tired. tired to be constantly on my feet, worried that any thing may go wrong. and there are so many things going on. I m so tempted to just break away, give myself more time, and more space. and also, allow myself to study more and focus on tutorials and lectures a tinnie bit more. i m still so lost for ECD. and i should really do InE so that i dun need to go to sch on thur. see the amount of work that's pilling up on me? its a wonder why i m still here. i just need to rant. thank GoD for hols.

2008-10-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

first week of sch, just ended. SPM proj is done and over with. but there's still SPM for next wk. but its not graded, so not too bad. then, this week is really pretty hectic. like alot of stuff all so messed up. and here i am, once again reading my chi romance novels, getting away from reality, yet making me think alot, all again. think about myself. haha..everytime i read those stories, i would tell myself, i really dont want to be so stupid. that, she/he's really silly. tai sha le. he bi ne? but then, it seems like the road that one has to pass. that one has to go through hurt before understanding. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wadeva

2008-10-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

super tired after 5 days of camp. 3days of TRM camp + day0..then last day of crusade camp. slpt for bout 18hours before pulling myself outa bed. and had a disruption just after 3 hrs of sleep, illias called to explain some stuff.but honestly, at that moment, i didnt really care. slp was more important.

lets talk about camp.
TRM camp. it was really rather successful, everything really wrapped up nicely. it was really great. the year1s went of really happy. I really feel that they would go on telling the others, it was their lost not coming for the camp. That they did not expect to have as much fun/learn as much as they did. (seeing how they all appeared when they actually arrived for the camp) and as for me myself,i learnt quite a bit. i felt that i gained more than the yr 1s had, and thru this camp, learnt more about people.

just goggle blogsearch TRM camp, it really gives you a sense of accomplishment coz that's where all the true feels and thoughts are expressed, and you see alot. I thank God for that. Really touched when Troopa gave ivan and i stuff they just bought. Really didnt expect that coz they went missing after lunch, had to call them to hurry back, and ivan was like, where they go sia, why nvr look after them and stuff... so was really happy lar..haha

and, i love the camp committee. even though there were so much drama, so much up and downs in the entire camp, this is the 1 camp that ended soooooo well. really, kudos to the planning committee.

Next CRusade camp. went there rite after TRM break camp. Really have to THANK GOD. He really path my entire journey there. how can it be coincidence that i meet joel rite after i break camp, then he told me that they were getting a ride from daniel's car. then they picked me up otw. Without them, i really didnt know how i was gonna make it dere. and when i reached, it was like at the perfect timing. felt the presence of GoD just a in after i stepped in. it was OVERWHELMING. had to knell down to pray. i have to admit, i did tear a lil. ha! then after that, felt SOOOOOO welcome there. like everyone i knew was like, ARIANA! YOU MADE IT!!! like, sooo glad you came. I TOTALLY felt like i was right AT HOME. like i finally came back home. josh simon literally picked me off the ground and swing me up. i was really glad that i went, despite the fact that i really needed my sleep, i went, and despite going for less than 24 hours, i was RESTORED. i was. it really didnt matter bout the hours you spent there, or the number of sermons you hear, is about GOD, and Him touching your heart, and YOU, with your free will that HE gave you, and allowing Him to restore you.

Thank you GOD for ending my hol in such a fruitful manner.
my pics from cam whoring in both camps will be gotten soon!

2008-10-05T16:59:00.002+08:00

damn bored, if i didnt nap in the bus, i think i should be dead beat by now. suppose to be damn tired, coz didnt really sleep much i guess. coz i keep watching videos!!! oh no! and now i m back into korean. its like once you start on one lang, you ll cont and watch all the others, until you get a lil bored of it, move to another lang. i m just done with US series, and i really dont like to wait every week for the new episode, so i m stopping, until this season ends, then i ll d/l and watch..cant wait for gossip girl, prison break, heros...maybe i can d/l and watch grey's a for now too..wahahaha..thus, korean for now. i think i may slot in a few jap along the way, then back to tw, coz i think the new upcoming shows may not be tt bad. wait for them to come out first.wahahahaha..

and actually, its day0 for trm camp, not doing much..and......i decided, i m going for crusade camp. haha..last day to be exact. as wad seth said, even if i miss out on the actual programme, still can go there just to spend time with them and chat mahhh..miss them quite abit. really..haha.

acutally, it doesnt seem that bad if sch starts..

2008-10-01T02:12:00.002+08:00

i m going to type this entire entry without opening my eyes. so pardon me if you cant read the entire thing at all. coz my eyes really damn tired lar. was playing with html juz now. i finally figured out how to have all the different parts like my nlog where you click and can have profile, entry, chat etcetc. so ny eyes really damn tired!!!1 and its so dreaking late le larr! i m suppose to be damn tired too. omg. ytd i cycled SOOOOOOOOOOO much larr! wah piang, i actually cant really cycle. and its been a SYOER long time since i cycled. and....guess how long did we cycle ytd? we cycled at least (opening eyes to make sure type the right digit)......25km!!!!!! OMG (close eyes) we cycle from changi vullage all the way to the campsite which is near tanah mera nscc...and we cycled in the rain for he distance back lorrrrrrr.......OMG then stull rush bck to give tuition..and then tdy,pei my mum and my aunt coz they not working...and...... i went out at 11, reach hm AT 10. WALKED/SHOPPED FROM ORCHARD MRT to dhouby ghaut..please take not tt i cycled a killer distance and track nite wlk studd the day before.

(open eyes to stare at all the mistakes)

*cant be bothered to change. tired..gonna crash soon....nites

2008-09-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

my blog died. actually, through out my blog's entire life, it has died a significant number of times. yet, it ages with me. ha! my blog is actually 4 yrs old. and i have never changed my blog add before. unlike sum ppl...-->my dar,xf. change so many times. i lazy relink her le! lol.

hhmm..whats there to blog. actually, alot. alot of things happened and alot of things are going to happen, but i dunoe what to blog about. like, my results this sem not as gd, and that when i chatted with Ms Ho just now, she did mention that to get into local uni, you need a gpa of 3.9. ha! i can no nd go local uni le. ha!

and then what else, hmm..i keep watchin movies twice this hol. i watched mamma mia and hana yori dango twice. both with diff ppl. but then again, my record was 4 times i think. oh yar, and that cathay cinema sucks big time. coz when i watched hyd the second time, the subs was horribly pixel-ed and the sound system was terrible, sometimes loud, sometimes soft. i rmb tt it was cinema 4. the same cinema that i watch my 4 shows. the last time was the worst. ha!
hana yori had something that really caught me. to kinda know if 2 of you belong to each other, ask each other, what is ur dream. does it consist of the other party? i suggest you go watch the show. i watched it twice. noticed different stuff when i watched it.

hmm..what else. that trm camp is turning out to be an eventful camp. eventful in alot of ways. like between the camp comm, and between the jnrs and the things that are happening. and the thots i have about it. ytd finished the flag! its really cute. couldnt finish the shirt, but the yr1s were really great! thanks to silin and joana. voulunteered to finish them up! really sweet gals. then there's still night walk stuff haven settle yet. but, i think, camp would turn out great! its getting better and better.

but then, the other camp, crusade camp that falls on the same day, i dunoe what to say. heard tt dilion doesnt want to accept part time campers. hmmm..dunoe larr. dan my tuition boy having oral exam on the 9th. so i dunoe if i shld go tuition on the 8th nite. if that's the case, then i really no nd go for crusade camp le. but if i not going for tuition, i am SUPER tempted to go crash crusade camp even if dilion say cant. LOL. last nite nia mahhhh..wahahaha..see how larr..

then there is SPM. where tr01 is doing golf. and we did put in quite alot of effort on the proposal and the entire process of the workshop. yet, as in, i dun mind and it would be my honor to do so, i m asked to emcee the event, do briefing and be game show host, but it would mean that i would not be with my class most of the time. i most probably wouldnt be able to see the fruits of tr01's labour together. but, i noe it would be great. haha..

then there's the choosing of time table. sucks that tr01 end so early on mon. now i can only hope that jap would be on fri. then it would make my dream come true! wahahaha..but nevermind lar. i actually love tr03's time table, but dey dun wan ppl from the other sem joining their side, or someone would have to come over to the other sem. i totally get it lar. but they ave me an excuse to my logical side to stay in 01. coz it made more sense to go to 01 dan 02 coz at least i would be able to get 1 day early off. then ytd was choosing IS day. scary lorr, after ivan scared me and sophia coz we were in sch meeting our trm yr1s. super scared that i couldnt get into the same class that xf sent us in the morn. coz each class only had 4 slots. and when ivan chose his class at 12nn, after bout 1 min, there were no more slots for events mgt. super scary. but luckily, i got in after all the stress. the yr1s were all laughing at us. lol.

what else happened....ehhh..today had cocca trees mystery shopper training. super good. the speaker really inspiring. he's only 24, and he's a manager who started from scratch. he started working on the sales floor, like the most basic one, then after 4 months, promoted to managing trainee overseas. total cool. its nice to see and hear the real life success stories and wonder how ur working life may work out to be in the future. then you start to think, what do you wanna do, and you gotta think where you wanna start off and where you wanna end. and yet, if life, you wanna leave it to God coz he ll know what's best for you.

in this hols, i m kinda addicted to the twilight series. its really great. its actually a romance series intertwined with the supernatural of vampire and werewolves. yet as i reread the series again and again (i focus more on the last 2 books), i learn more and more. i started reading the book all thanks to syahid where i noticed his blogskin and wikipedia, knowing bout the movie before the series, then i had the crave to rekindle my love for english books. bought the first book, then the second and third before i finished the first. then when i m about to finish the 2nd book, i bought the 4th and the last coz i read abit of the 3rd and i super didnt like that part. so i had to buy the 4th to console myself coz i know that the series had a happy ending. so i acutally read bits and pieces of the 4th book before reading the 3rd. i read books in messed up ways lar. i dun like to read from the start to the end in a systematic way. it has never been like that for a long time.

this series taught me alot. mainly, the part that had stuck on me was the part about choices. that the choices we make, make us who we are. emotions and situations are not really in our control. is what we chose in the end that makes us who we are. the choice to stop that emotion that we are feeling to feel another way, to make changes to our mistake or words that can change a situation, is what we choose that makes us who we are. not the different faces of ourselves that we are in different situation.
the fact that we choose to let God have control of our lifes, that choice that we let GoD's will over rule our wants, makes us who we are.

hmmmm..kinda a long post to revive my blog. LOL.

hols are coming to an end. soon i guess. i kinda had something in mind today. you noe ppl, (okay, i admit, ME) always say that we dont have holidays, we end up having so much to do, we dont have time to rest. i realised today. that is bullshit. that fact that we are doing so much, shows how much we value time and experience our lifes to the fullest to fill it up with things. and we learn so much. hols is just a diff part our life. and that learning nver stops, not in a hol, not when you graduate. and since our poly edu is so flexible and so much of experiencial learning, it seems like we dont have a hol coz when we learn in the hol, it seems like our normal classes. this just proves that our learning system in poly is great. not our hol suck. i guess, its great to be able to put the pic ard. like when cpt jack sparrow turned the ship upside down in the 3rd movie where "up is down" as quoted. that i enjoy my hol the way it is.

i m soooooooo preachy, i realise i m really getting more and more preachy and naggy. lol. but then again, i like to be the know it all, and i also really like to share what i noe. so haha..bear with me abit. or, you can always not read my blog LOL..

but, i m getting back the more natural side of me too. if you noe me, you shld noe me, you ll get me.

wahahahahahaha........

love God,
love others,
love you.

2008-09-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

wa ta shi wa toteimo yasashi desu!!!!!

THANK YOU GOD!!!! thank you so much for your overflowing blessing! thank you for giving me what i want even though i didnt pester you for it. For giving me more than i requested and expected. For showing me that, in times where i am weak, i depend on you rather than myself, things will always be great coz you are the one in control. that relying on you is the only one i shld EVA rely on.

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!!

i no longer need to worry bout 15 Sept anymore..

2008-08-08T12:35:00.002+08:00

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the end of all my projs. yata.. finally. and it ended nicely too. coz atrm's presentation was rather nicely done. and besides, the report is not bad too. but its broken up to so many parts, 5% for everything. makes it v hard to get marks. like its worth v lil. like, 4 parts. report, presentation, peer evaluation, reflection. 5% each ehhh..like. peer evaluation, 5%. a tiny bit weird larr. oh yar, i m using jasmine's laptop to blog now. and carrie's grp is presenting now. haha..so rude of me. xp

but yay!!! going to watch dark knight ltr. FINALLY....... its the last wk alrdy larr..LOL. then tmr...ITS NATIONAL DAY!!! woohoo!!!i m really abit worried. as in, not at ease as i shld be. coz, by the last show, shld be rather confident and stuff. but, i m not. coz the changes are so huge. but oh wells, its the last time alrdy. gotta give it all the best! and yupps, just got another tix from my dear grp member..haha..thanks so much!!! wahahahaha..now my parents can go watch tgt le... hopefully they ll lemme go for supper with my friends after NDP..to stay out late. for once. haha..than after tt. after all the fun, laughter peace and joy, its back to reality. EXAMS...its seriously horrible. coz its like, all the other courses finish their proj and everything all like 1 or 2 wks ago. TRM is like, until tdy. dun even have time to study at all. rushing proj and all. and i ll proj is like those take alot of time, and canot rush out all at once then study tt kind. like i said as usual, hu is the one hu said poly life is easy. TRM summore. super hard larrr.. i wan my slack jc life....NOT. haha..i still love life here.

after exams, i wanna get a job! admin job. then still have TRM yr1 camp, CCC camp, maybe red camp sl camp...which i dunoe if i can go..haha..i love red camp!! LOL.

but hoping to earn $$ to finance overseas trip for nxt yr. yupps.
yay..going for pasta mania and pizza hut today!! haha..

i m a happy happy girl larr..feel so much more at ease le.

i just wan time!! can anyone sell me time?? haha

**Thank God for all the projs, its OVER!!!and i noe he ll bless me.

2008-08-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

home sweet home, was in sch rushing out LAM proj..then went with xf do get the NDP stuff..went twice sum more..coz some lazy ppl dun wan come bishan...haha..but i m still going to sch tmr larr. so otw take for them lorr..LOL..first time going to collect the tix, on the way up to heartware got weird encounter lorr..it was like so...dunoe to say yes or no de..so...then when go up to collect tix, even weirder..coz christina was like.. anw, it was frm weird to weirder..v gao wei..*shuddles* so was like..wanna get outta there. then met jac, chat with her quite a bit. but was at the outside, so not too bad.
eee..

anw, sad ehhh....jie cancel dinner 2nd time le.. i wan pizza hut pizza larr..and, i wan watch movie. and i v long nvr see gor le.as in, last time, will see them every other day de..now is like..tt s y feel v long larr..

sian...maybe i shld really just come hm guai guai study..

omg..i wan slp le!!..its like 2.35 le..

2008-08-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

time. time Audio Help [tahym] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, adjective, verb, timed, tim·ing. –noun

1.	the system of those sequential relations that any event has to any other, as past, present, or future; indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events succeed one another.

2.	duration regarded as belonging to the present life as distinct from the life to come or from eternity; finite duration.

3.	(sometimes initial capital letter) a system or method of measuring or reckoning the passage of time: mean time; apparent time; Greenwich Time.

4.	a limited period or interval, as between two successive events: a long time.

5.	a particular period considered as distinct from other periods: Youth is the best time of life.

**from dictionary.com

people always time heals all. but there are also people who say, a broken vase can never be fixed. What do you want to believe? which one applies best for you?

I've never had a heart ache, so i have no idea which is right, what is wrong. But, i always believe in looking at the bright side of life. it ll never hurt you to do so. just that, how much time?

2008-08-04T20:26:00.003+08:00

see, the problem is that i haven started on LAM at all. and its a darn impt proj tt i haven been focusing on. and if i screw this proj up, i screw my A as well. and i ll just have to say sayonara to my GPA. But hmmm... other things have been on my mind as well.

You noe what, I seriously dont want to be the one trying to be someone for somebody. and, you noe what, sometimes if you think you have done alot for others or you're sensitive to others, make sure you get a third person's point of view. meaning, someone who aint really v close. coz, sometimes, you dont really see. You noe, sometimes I would really like to just stay away, and not really care. just act emo at a corner when i just really cant be bothered. But then again, I dont. Coz i CHOOSE NOT to. see, everyone is allowed to be and allowed to have many different characteristic and actions, at any time they want. Its not that ONE single character/action that that person does that determine who he/she is. People change, people grow. DUH. do you think you are that same person you are when you were 5? Hmm..maybe some ppl are. Dumb and immature.

Besides, to add a side note, GoD is the one who made us. So, this include changes.

If you think i m all nice, sugar and spice, (i mean outa work/sch context), I guess, I still have that lil part of me that..ooo..have not CHANGED since.. i was lemme see....i think, 11 or 12.

You noe what, if you think you're tired, that you wanna give up, tt you're the one trying to save someone, please look at me.you shld see a mirror image. this time, please take out your sunglasses and try NOT to raise your nose too high, coz, you may see things wrongly again.

But you noe what, I may not wanna let you see me.

I have always had a habit of giving ppl the benefit of a doubt and, I have always believed in second chances. Coz, I myself know that I need it.

Its just that, you're so impactful, you make me break my habit.

yawnz, i shld really start on my proj. It's the last one. and then,

ITS OVER.

2008-07-29T08:57:00.000+08:00

it has been a long 28 days since i have typed in my blog! ha! and its now closing to mid night alrdy.
Its been an eventful 28days i must say. but since when has my life not been eventful afte i came to poly? but have been kinda accident prone this sem. last wk was the 3rd time i had fever this sem. And i sprain my foot 3 days ago. and i still have WOW day to manage this fri and ndp preview to do on sat. Dunoe if my foot can make it by then.

life has slowed down abit last week though. starting to have more time at home and all. But, i noe something is missing. My time with GoD. I noe i noe. i need to give Him my time and my life so that it will be fruitful and on the right track. I KNOW.

budden, besides that, i acutually like who i am now. and also, i dun think i have changed that much. changed from last sem i mean. there's no new ariana or an old ariana for you to want. even if there is, I am who I am. Deal with it. We cant live in the past and we cant revert back. People move as time move. Nobody stays the same. this is called growing, learning. it is true. people change. but i dont see a need to going back to who i was if i even did change. I believe i didnt change into some complete stranger.I am still Me. But i think that the way some people view me has changed. But that's just my perspective. And. I know some parts of me have changed that I dont really like. Like the part where I dont really treat people very nice when I m in an event and the way I "command" people. i really hate tt part of me. I wanna treat people nicer. Like how i did in the past. Also, I think i used to be more friendly, happier. I just dont see that bubbly side of me anymore. which is something I wanna find out what happened. But i believe it is my relationship with GoD. I know if i get back to him, things would change. However, I am still ME.

2008-07-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

Your result for The What type of MAN turns you on Test...

Buff bad boy

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2008-07-27T15:56:00.001+08:00

Your dating personality profile:

Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Romantic
2. Religious
3. Traditional
4. Adventurous
5. Big-Hearted
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Conservative
8. Stylish
9. Intellectual
10. Sensual

Your date match profile:

Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Romantic
2. Religious
3. Adventurous
4. Traditional
5. Practical
6. Big-Hearted
7. Outgoing
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Conservative
10. Intellectual

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2008-07-01T11:33:00.002+08:00

hihi.. ariana is still alive. BUT dying soon. LAM proj is really damn damn damn damn hard. i do until v xing ku. a topic on clarke quay and boat quay, clubbing. i really canot do. then, this proj is alot on ideas and talking it out and having a stand and comments. "anything" will not get you ANY WHERE. damn. this is a damn hard proj to do. then i really have no ideas on such stuff. it's like totally no link with LAM oso mahh. then, it's all due next week. and its just so tough. I really want to do well coz I m not doing well for al my other modules, i dont even think i m going do well this sem. my gpa is gonna die. did you know that a gpa of 3.6, you cant get into university? and you need at least a 3.9 to get into NTU accountancy. WOOHHOO!!.....yar rite. DIE!. horrible. i dun think i can make it anymore. say bye bye to degree. BUT, i wan to say, this time, i want to give it up to GoD and let HIM take control. uni or not, it's up to Him...

But really feel that this sem is really hard. my results are really horrible. my ct, CMI. i m really quite tired oso. even though technically hols are just over, i m tired. i just want to rest. and today is 1st July. it's now July. hiaz. i dont like it any more.

2008-05-22T16:40:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love xf :)
( that was written by xf)

oh man!!! http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Honey_and_Clover go check it out!!

Joe Cheng and Eddie Peng in the same show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!11
my 2 fav chi actors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ignore her. =)
the end.
HAPPY DAY!

wade..oh mann!! they both very the shuai!!!!!!!!!!!!!

super super super super super shuai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
v v v v v shuai shuai shuao!!

ariana fan hua chi liao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-20T16:46:00.002+08:00

cant believe it rite..ariana is actually blogging. k larr, as I listen and hear TR02 present, I found alot of mistakes in our proposal and presentation, but oh wells, its over. haha..i seriously think that our idea and programme is great. and wahhhhhhhhh 03 only have 1 guy in their class arhh..LOL..i will pay attention de..hor dy dar. LOL..wahhh..anw, i m kinda hundry, nvr really eat lunch. haha..hmm..
i really cant hlp it larr..i wanna review our whole project, sry, the nerdy side of ariana coming out.

Our presentation, very high, very hyper, but the log and sponsor, nvr really have the flow, coz they lyk became presentation style when my concept was really NOT presentation style! but oh wells, they did do a GREAT job. juz tt there's no flow. then, for our proposal, we didnt add in the fund raising plan, and we didnt call the people or what eva, even though we did not need to do it, but we had nothing substential. so yarr..

oh yarr. I remember, I didnt introduce the group and myself. I hate it that i realise everything ONLY after it's done. hate it hate it. no ..hate myself. damn. sucks.

this is the problem of not being prepared.

damn. i forgot one real big problem. we forgot that this time, the teachers DID not read our proposal yet. DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!! problem problem problem. i suck i suck i suck. gonna let the class down!! damn. you know what? ariana sucks.

anw, someone is not a v presentor. so sad. but yarr..HATE MYSELF.
BADDDDDDD....

hiaz, why does ariana always look at the bad side and not the good side?damn,

2008-05-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

ariana loveeeeeeeeeesssssssssss firefox!!!! woohoo!! after i reformatted my lappy, now i can use firefox..i m soooooo happy. haha..but here's the catch. Ariana has no programmes on her lappy. meaning, she cant even read word documents. WOW. for such a "wow" day. but that means she cant even do her tutorials!!! wahhhhhhh how?!?! haha..no need do liao lorr..haha..wanted go see tmr's st soccer match de. but i dun think i will..haha..coz it's freaking late and i m still online..wonder why?its all the fault of viwawa..haha..but, oh wells, i wanna have a break..but i will study tmr. really. haha

2008-05-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

i m like super busy..so why am i blogging? coz my cem prog team will do ALLLLLLLLLLLL the work by them selves!! wahahahahahahaha..i dont want to do anything at all le..woohoo!! anw, ehh..i nd to go. but i promise i will blog tonight. coz today is tgif!!!woohoo!! i think there's something to do tmr, but i just cant remember. and i think i have tomyam craving, how..i wan eat, but i no money le..i nd someone to sponsor. ehhh..but i have envoys. dunoe end at what time today, if not can ask wendy treat me. buti gtg!!wahahaha..

2008-05-02T10:00:00.003+08:00

darn. haha..reading the book. the infamous book. i kissed dating goodbye. k larr..only the front part. i read abit only. its just that. abit affected by th book. but actually, its like telling me stuff that i alrdy noe. it's just confirming the bad stuff and it aim helping. i think they may be "remedies and cures" in the book. but its just. hiaz. i actually thought things are clearer that my dear big DaDDy have let me see stuff. but. it's just confusing. darn. i really dont like trials and tribulations. they are really tough. but darn. go read James1. hiaz. constant reminder. and i think He's really still trying to inculcate patience in me. really. it's like i noe it but i really still aint acting on it. and everyman hu noes it, but doesnt do it, dar, i forgot the verse. i noe is in the NT though..

and i didnt pay attention to PMKT at all. darn. sure die liao.

2008-04-29T09:16:00.002+08:00

i m in Andy's class nice..ha! andy..sound v close horrrrr.......NOT...if we were close, i dont really think i ll be here.. i wan go watch movie ehh..but i think wendy dun wan..so sad. darn, i dun lyk to wear white shorts. I cant clean my hands on white shorts. hiaz..i forgot the reason why i lyk to wear jeans. you can clean ur hands on them no matter how dirty, and on one noes how dirty it is. LOL. oh wells. how..i wan go watch movie..and...i nd to buy myself black straights, and a chunky long necklace so that i can get myself tt giodarno top. yupps. but...wendy got work to do larr!! actually, i oso have. but...aiya.........k larr..i guess i should do homework. and stop going out lorr..sobs...xf bought a necklace ytd....i wan larrr..frm diva sumore..nvm nvm..dy dar saw that ltr gss got more..i must learn to be patient.and i m lyk super cold now.

2008-04-22T14:45:00.002+08:00

wahahahaha..blogging in bcomm class..so fun..hurmp, i dun wan talk to wendy liao. she talk to OTHER ppl, dun wan talk to me..wahahahahahahaha..i keep laughing in bcomm. v funny stuff. go read xf's blog v nice..aiya, i just copy over...

1. when a relationship ends, a woman will cry and pour her heart out to her girlfriends, and write a poem titled 'All Men Are Idiots'. then she will get on with her life. a man has a little more trouble letting go. 6 months after the break-up, at 3am on a sat night, he will call and say, "I just wanted to let you know you ruined my life, and I will never forgive you, and I hate you, and you are a total floozy. But I want you to know there's always a chance for us." this is known as the 'I Hate You/I Love You' drunken phone call, that 99% of all men have made at least once.

2. to their credit, men do not decorate their penmanship. they just chicken-scratch. women use scented, coloured stationary and they dot their 'i' with circles and hearts. women use ridiculously large loops in their 'p' and 'g'. it is a royal pain to read a note from a woman. even when she's dumping you, she'll put a smiley face at the end of the note.

3. when a man says he's ready to go out, it means he is ready to go out. when a woman says she's ready to go out, it means she will be ready to go out, as soon as she finds her other earring, finishes putting up her make-up...

4. if a woman is out driving and find herself in unfamiliar surroundings, she will stop at a petrol station and ask for directions. men consider this to be a sign of weakness. men will never stop and ask for directions. men will drive in a circle for hours, all the while saying things like, "Looks like I've found a new way to get there", and "I know I'm in the neighbourhood. I recognize that 7-11 store".
[now i noe why gor had to drive the whole of spore b4 reaching hm tt night...*shakes head*]

5. a successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. a successful woman is one who can find such a man.

6. men always want to be a woman's 1st love. women have a more subtle instinct-they like to be a man's last romance.

7. a woman will always cherish the memory of the man who wanted to marry her. a man will cherish the memory of the woman he didn't marry.

8. a woman has the last word in any argument. anything a man says after that is a beginning of a new argument.

9. only 2 things are necessary to keep one's wife happy. one is to let her think she's having her own way and the other is to let her have it.

10. if women knew what men were thinking, they'd never stop slapping them.

funny..but, then again, i dun lyk sum parts..LOL..

i think, now what i really need is rest..even though there are lyk so many up coming events. wahhh!! have envoys stuff..i wan do interviews!! so fun!! then have ndp2008, service camp, then interesting LMs..even though i wan to do stuff, but, i guess there are also somethings that i need to learn to give up. its really hard you noe, to keep myself from being involved. i love having lots of events and activities, as long as i can fit it in schedule, and i have the time. But i guess, after these 3 weeks, getting fever twice, its hard not to influenced that i shld take my own health into consideration. always put other things before my own health. Its like somthing that i have never think about when i do things. I think about time, the outcomes, my other ccas, my studies, my family, my friends, but i almost never think about my own health. it's something i totally take forgranted larr..

and, as wad lao ma said, i can be abit of a workaholic. slogging out and forgetting about food, sleep and health. . . . but that's only if i start. if i dont, i m lyk super slack. i have no in-between. so oh wells..

2008-04-14T11:49:00.002+08:00

woohoo!! gave out nakedi mags!!response not bad. ppl look at the cover and go..woooo...naked arhh..lol..but according to wen, she saw some in the dustbin. but hey, look at the number we give out and the number in the dustbins...its UNCOMPARABLE k kz!!! woohoo!! very high and excited!!..even though it's the frist day of sch. but oh wells, nakedi is soo much better!! hu cares bout monday blues when there's nakedi and it's soo much better!! oh yarr,,lecture over le. i ll update and talk more ltr..see..i tld you. i ll always blog when sch starts!! wahahaha

2008-02-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

yay. my parents nvr off the internet!! wow. haha. v incredible.

anw, was on the phone with jie. haha..jie's hse to be exact. coz she put me on speaker, and besides, her sis, gor n les was at her hse. haha.. really envy them. i m not jealous or covet or that larr..wad i mean is, hmmm..k kz. maybe i m jealous, but that's wrong and that's sinning. how to say arhh..aiya. is just that, seeing them lyk that, you feel that its all sweet and warm. the family and friends thingy. its just great to have siblings and cousins who are ard the same age as you. who you are close to, and even better, can hang out till late at night.as in, late late lyk 12am late. except for chalet, which is lyk only twice in my entire 17 yrs and 7months of life, i haven hang out til so late b4. but, its ariana anw. how late can she stay out? i think its abit kinda sad fer me. as in, i m the only child. yes. tt's the reason why i can be abit spoilt and bratty at times. and i dun have any cousins or relatives that i m close too oso.. so sad ehh..loner ehh..but i thank GoD for all the friends that He has placed in my life. all my bros and sis in Christ. love them loads, love them to bits. haha..thanks GoD i went to np. haha..

actually, i wanted to blog bout my 1 yr in poly. and other stuff. but i guess, let's leave it till nxt time when i have the whole day to blog. now, i nd to slp. if not have panda eyes. then nobody will wan liao. haha...
i think i m...

2008-02-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

suddenly, i like the song in my my blog alot. i acutally wanted to change it coz its been there for quite some time, but hmm...i m surprised i m still not sick of it..ha! really. i m someone who likes new fresh stuff alot. love new environment. haha.. i m blogging.. coz i m complacent. darnnn..GoD blesses me so much and i m taking HiM forgranted.. oh mannnnn...... i shld really go study. i shld.. i oso didnt study last night. and i didnt study much today either. it's gor's bdae mahh..wahahaha.. i love the balloons we got for him. haha..wonder how he went hm today..jie sure wun wan go bac with him on public transport.haha..oh yarr..i wonder what's the recording on the balloon.. they confirm will change de..wahahahaha..

anw, today went to sch, one of the main reason, was to celebrate gor's bdae for him. then he horr..v fickle sia...say come, then dun come, den come late, then come. aiyo..so messed up larr..and i was alrdy on the way to sch larr..can see that shao wei was abit pissed. and my hp batt oso died. so go sch lorr...even if gor dun come, jie oso in sch wad. she'll noe wad to do. haha. yupps. in the end, we went holland v to get him big big. and i mean, BIG balloons. haha..and jie got gor a vdae balloon. tt can record voice. super fun..haha..then we got him cake, a slice. but ehh..k larr.. my fault larr..but when i lighted the candle, the candle toppled off. darn. then no surprise liao..hiazzz..i spoiler lorrrr..LOL..but luckily he WAS surprised by the balloons.. i love the balloons too..haha..v fun. and the pooh on was so cute.. i ll put the pics when i get it! haha!

yupps! so HAPPY 20th BDAE JOSHUA gorgor!!! hope you liked what we did for you!! esp, wad jean jie did fer ya!! haha..yupps..!

2008-02-18T20:20:00.003+08:00

3 down. 2 to go. what's after that?
i dun wan such things to happen. cant imagine what would things turn out. i ll rather stand far away to prevent such things from happening. i may be selfish coz i dun wan to be hurt, but i oso dun wan to see others hurt. but am i able to?...what would things turn out to become?

i gues, we can only wait and see.

2008-02-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

lemme gather my thoughts first before i try to go on to the next chapter of my revision. hmm..just read, watch, rmbed lots of story, shows bout first love... you noe, statistics have shown that your first love has more than 90% chances of affecting the rest of ur (love) life. meaning it will change ur perception on alot of things. and also if your first love didnt last, it ll affect the way you choose ur next partner, and the way you choose to love. i didnt say that it can be gd or bad, but it will affect in some way or another. oh yarr..you can forgot bout all ur other loves, but you can never forget ur first. i guess it varies for diff ppl. but it still stands true. you noe, they say that if both you marry ur first love (vice versa for the couple), it ll last forever. but yet, the probability of that is oh so small. but today all the romance stories that i have been readin n watchin is bout first loves lost and found. i guess, it makes the best kind of romance stories. and its also quite realistic, coz of the lack of maturaity, you love but you dont know how, so in order not to hurt one another, you break. but then again, the love still lasts. its only after you grow that you noe how to love that you love the best. i guess, this is kinda true for most ppl. so normally, ppl wld noe how to love when they find the next and hopefully last love. but the most rare is that you could find you first love and you get back together. sweet isnt it?

but so i have a qns, since you noe ur first love wld most probably not last,
1. y go for it, it ll break you in the end?
2. y not go for it, would it make a difference of who you ur first love is?

answes anyone?

2008-02-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

its 1.38 am. and i wanna go slp at 2. if not tmr no nd study le. and i have decided, study tmr. dun go out. see, i so guai. haha..mugger. damn. wad ppl say is rite. but actually, i still hav ett feelin tt i may end up watchin tv instead of studyin. but wadeh.. stay home chances of studyin is higher then going out. anw, relatives come my hse today. wasnt really lookin forward. trust me. have nvr looked forward to it before. aint close to my relatives at all. add on to the fact tt i m the only child. i guess, i really kinda loner bahh..haha..but all wells. in the end had fun. coz gotta play cards. my fav. haha..added on to my hp fund. but its of course still not enuff larr..hp ex leii..ppl..please be nice and generous this cny, hlp ariana get a decent hp..(scroll down to previous post to find out more).
and, drank wine. white, red, sparkling/sweet. like. all add up, alot. tt kinda explains my slight drunkness and openess to be blogging here! LOL... anw, hhmm..wad does ariana do when she's drunk? i have no idea. ask wendy. mayb she noes. but sadly, no body around. hor wendy? lol..if not sure......LOL..hmm..really, feel lyk doing something on my bdae this yr. 18 ehh..LOL..play something. nvm. my parents off my internt. tt means i can only post this tmr morn..oh wells..i shld slp anw. i m drunk.

2008-02-04T21:28:00.001+08:00

here are my hp pics!!!

2008-02-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

i lost my hp..hmm..actually, i didnt lose it. i still have it with me. just that it's not in a v gd working condition. once i take pics of it, i ll put it up ta let you guys have a look. this kinda things dont happen v often. and hopefully, it doesnt. haha..quite a few ppl have seen le bahh..coz my hp kenna run over by car...lemme explain as many ppl have asked..i fell down again. yes..2nd time in 3 days. fell down at the road. then hp drop on road..then i didnt realise i dropped my hp till after walkin a distance.. so when go back to find. its yarr..the way it is now. yupps..so that's my story..so i have offically lost all my messages, my notes, my bdaes, my contacts!!! so i m really sorry if i dun rmb ur bdae, i m soooo super sorry.. so ppl..pls give me ur contacts and bdae online..pls...

hiaz...........i really super sad lar!!!!!!!!!!but yarr..tryin to have a gd laugh over it..haha..so yupps..but i dun mind ppl giving me a new hp though..samsung slide would be nice..haha..

2008-02-01T09:29:00.000+08:00

haha haha haha. i m actually having fun in LMS.lol..game really quite fun. haha..hmmm.. I had things to blog!! last night. then i forgot. i really do forget alot of stuff after I sleep. haha..i think my brain filters all the stuff that happened in the day when i slp. the bad into recycle bin and the gd into folders, tt's why everything is in a mess. haha.. oh yar. ytd last LM.

so sad. really gonna miss the year 3s..they are all so nice larr..haha..always let me bully, then have alot of fun AND of course good food. haha..like ytd, danielW's classmate's mum's pineapple tarts was like SUPPPPPPEEEEEERRRRRRR GOOD larr..haha..had more than I m suppose to have. haha..daniel lyk wanted to kill me..haha..but then again, haha..he's too nice to do so..haha..and jacob. always full of concern for ppl around him, and then helpfulness..no wonder both of them are in ECH..haha then there's josh gorgor..always kena qiao za by me..haha..then always kena tekan by me..haha..then there's shao wei. who like know sooooo many things. and tells lots of stuff..haha..he can always tell what's the fastest way to go anywhere. haha.. also, there's sinyi jiejie and joyce. haha..learnt quite alot from them. how to be nicer, how to think for others, and one other thing from sinyi. To always apologise after you have reflected and know that you were wrong. even if time has past. I ll really miss them loads.

then ytd, ron's talk. wah piang..super hard to understand larr..haha..but i am started to absorb abit after talking to ron. i guess, i have to really find our what GoD wants me to do. but ytd was great. i was like late to go hm. mum n dad was really quite pissed. coz i was still at KAP at 10. so in the end take cab with wendy. started chatting with the taxi driver. he talked bout his life, then his children. then after wendy left, the driver talk bout his daughter going to church! wow.. so we started talkin bout religion and stuff. he was a non believer. free thinker. from what i heard, what's stopping him from believing is coz he had to do donations as a pri sch kid for the church coz he was from a methodist school. haha. then he keep emphasizing that its we that we help ourselve and not GoD. its very hard to kai ta de xin jie. but his children are christians and even his wife was converted from a taoist to a christian. I really can see GoD working in his family. Just wanna hope that GoD can soften his hardern heart. I ll pray for him! haha..

and just this week wendy and I also chatted bout GoD with xuan fang. hmm..funny. actually, i realise there is quite a difference between the way wendy and i approach the matter. haha. but nvm, at least i think it made xf start to think..haha..hope GoD will work in her. and i'll cont to pray..ppl if you read this, please pray for my friends....haha..

i think i acutally have lots more to blog. but damn. blame my goldfish memory span..haha..

2008-01-30T08:55:00.000+08:00

29Jan 11.54 pm
Haha.. funny that i have this habit of blogging after my internet is off. I think its coz i can blog since now i m not chatting. Haha..funny how my close friends have the same problems as me. Makes you feel better. Not really coz we have the same probs, but coz they are coming to you to talk to you bout it. makes tt friendship so much more tight. That you could be there for them. Anw, i m abit down now. As in, not really hyped up or cheerful that i usually am. but don’t really wanna blog bout it larr..but if you wanna noe, you can ask me..haha..ehh.. tmr, CIP presentation, shld be not too bad larr...i trust my grp. I think its starting to be a habit to go to ourspace. Even though i probably wont go after sch since sch ends so late, i ll be there in the early morn before lesson starts. Starting to like it there alot. Really wanna study even though i haven really been doing that. But i will. Try. Haha..hiaz...

Abit down today..do you know why?...izzit bcoz of you?... ... ...

i m in our space now!!LOL

2008-01-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

my post before i disappear to study. even though i know i ll still come back to blog quite soon since i cant really study for long. i l still in sch though. dun feel lyk goin home. rather be in sch alone and you can see people and you wun face four walls then home alone. haha.. hmm..i should really study my macro and go thru the past yr paper and PRINT the articles for the last qns which i hv failed so far.. after macro then bmgt. then i ll read my fabm book and hom at home. those 2 subjs seem more suitable to study at home. dunoe why. haha..then of course. CIP which i have been avoiding for a v v v v v long time. haha..so yupps..bye!!

2008-01-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

suppose to be posted at 27jan 1.34 am

just came back hm from winnie's wedding. not the trm winnie, the crusade winnie..haha..just wanna thank GoD for her, for all her help and pray that GoD will cont to bless her, esp her marriage with her newly wedded husband! haha.. haha..guess wad. winnie threw the bouquet of roses, with only me jean jie jie and wendy behind to catch larr..lol..guess who caught it???????

whaha..me!!! lol. actually i shouldnt, should have let jean jiejie catch..LOL..ahem ahem.. ppl should noe what i mean. haha..but hey, i caught it leii..v big deal for me ehh..lol..it's like doing something that only happens in tv. but does tt mean anything? lol..i dunoe..haha
actually, me, jean jiejie, wendy n josh gorgor was lyk barely on time today. even though we were suppose to be there early..lol.long story larr..haha..but at least we got ta saw the march in. but didnt get to sit with the rest of the crusade ppl..haha..i think first time i wear dress with light makeup..haha..and heels. even though in the end i got tired with my heels and started walking bare footed..haha..wendy was scolding me..haha..but cant help it..barefooted feels so comfortable even though i knew the floor was really dirty..haha..and that was so much more ariana..haha.. then after leaving the church, went ta novena to celebrate Laniel Diu's bdae!! haha..he was really shocked larr..wahaha..coz he believed sinyi..wahahaha..then we had the whole shaving cream mess-up party..wahahaha..then laniel dumb larr..go n eat the cream..coz he thot it was whipped creamm..wahahahahaha super funny ehh..then it was lyk, after blowing the candles, taking photo, caleb prayed, we had the total spray cream party..lol..funny larr..all the guys hold daniel down when caleb prayed..wahahaha..then we gave laniel his present, (new shirt, coz we knew he would need a new shirt as we bought the shaving cream on the same day..wahahaha) then laniel started creaming other ppl..lol..of course i got it too..lol..i lost all my "feminity" once we went outa the church..lol..was screaming and creaming everyone..wahaha..fun larr..then can run around. coz i was barefooted..haha..then in the end laniel got so much cream that he coud style his hair the famous beckham spike style..LOL..of course, we all went to clean up in the toilet and got abit of cake. then took pic with laniel in his new shirt that i chose.wahaha..with wendy n jean jiejie larr..haha..but i really lyk to shop for guy's clothes. more fun lorr.. i dun lyk to shop for gal's clothes, can never noe what to get..haha..guy's so much more fun..haha..oh yarr..did i say b4, if i have bf rite..i wanna wear his jacket..i dunoe why larr..but yarr, that's something that i d wanna do..haha..

the journey home was also quite fun. gor drive, jean front seat, me wendy seth behind. haha..lots of jokes and stuff..

but all in all, i noe i need to stay close with GoD, and be paitent, really really patient. coz wad i want may not be what GoD wans. and as they always say, why settle for second best when GoD has the BEST in stored for you?

hiaz...if only the govt didnt make social studies compulsory........

2008-01-25T11:04:00.000+08:00

2nd post of the day..funny. i always say that i dun wanna do the same things all over again. but things keep on happening repeatedly all over again. sian...it's like, when will i ever overcome the obstacle, or izzit that in actual fact, the same things does constantly occur in your life? and its becoming tougher and tougher each day, each year. am i becoming.......i dunoe what to say larr..i actually have so much to do. but i m still blogging. and i was playin stupid games and quizes. lame..and i m freezing cold now. super super cold. you noe, i have always been afraid of the cold. since i was a kid. canot stand cold. but if you think in the literature kind of way. what does cold symbolizes, it means empty, without warmth. warmth of the sun, lack of the fuzzy feeling, lack of company. do you know why? because in the cold, the best way to keep warm is to keep close to another person, let the body heat keep close to each other. which is to hug each other. that then leads to the "warm, fuzzy" feeling to company. this is what it all voices down to. heat right now, i m feeling super cold. freezing to be exact in ourspace. serious. my teeth is chattering and i m shivering. but i refuse to go.. tell me why..tell me why i refuse to go from this cold cold place

But then, GoD is light and GoD gives that warm fuzzy feeling of LoVe and comfort. he gives you all that you want. so what am I looking for??what am i confused bout?? i guess, like what seth said..RUI!!!! Stop analyzing life. Just live life. Analysis is what makes life complicated.

2008-01-25T09:03:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha...rui doesnt want to think! rui just wanna have fun, do well in sch, make my parents happy and proud. this is sooooo easy. but making DaDDy happy..wahhhhhhhhh super hard larr..

but then again, what i heard last night, is abit hard to digest. coz, i kinda know what is right, but then again, from what my mum was saying, its like different. but deep down, i kinda know, what's not right. but what is not right may also not be wrong wad....haha..i think i m gonna scare my ahma with what i m bloggin. coz if i m not wrong, she knows what i m talking about.

wahahahahaha.....but..aiya......... as what someone has said of me before, think too much, too logical, then it kinda defeats all the purpose. so hiazzzzzz...........i dunoe le larr..haha..

2008-01-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

in fabm lecture. had quite a horrible time. i dunoe. sudden attack. and its hard larr..its really hard to follow GoD. especially for someone who thinks so much. I noe i love HiM, but we live in a world of sin. that i feel, is constantly polluting me. Did i mention i don't like the age 18. Its the age where all the stuff gets complicated and things start to change. Not that i dont like change. I do, i love changes, but, just not this change i guess. But i will not escape and say i do not want to grow up, cause i will obey GoD to grow and and not cont to be foolish. BUT, its hard!! really, sometimes, i really have no idea of what's right and what's wrong anymore. If only eve didnt eat the forbbiden fruit which gives wisdom if i m not wrong. But then again , if she want to eat, why not just eat it all?? then at least we wun have so much problems of not understanding so much stuff..but then again,

please dun read what i have blogged above. its soooooo wrong.

i dunoe what i want. and i dunoe what GoD wants.
but as wad choo say, i may noe all the ans, but i just dun wanna face and confirm the ans and just remain in the state of unknowing.

anw, back from FABM break, now i m no longer in the mood to pay attention. During break, did stupid stuff again..haha..i always do stupid stuff anw. turning in circles and trying to dance in the open space next to LT 72. haha. i miss dance. i miss turing in circles, doin jumps and hurting my self the the right way (stretching larr..wad we you thinking..lol)..haha.. i really should get back to dance. i really do love dance afterall.. chinese dance. i wanna dance. but...

anw, doing what is right and what is wrong. hmmm... actually, why cant we do things that we know is wrong? ha..

hiaz...all in all of this random blog post, i love one thing that Choo said. If you donoe if you can do something or not, ask yourself. If Jesus is standing next to you, would you feel guilty as He sees you do it?

2008-01-21T10:09:00.001+08:00

As usual, its late and i have no internet connection coz mum and dad turned it off. At first, i wanted to blog bout OH and all that has happened, the fun, the laughter and everything. I will, but ltr. I realise that there is something else really important. GoD. Really. Seriously speaking, i haven’t been spending alot of time with GoD these few days. But i can sense that He desperately has things to tell me. And how do i noe? By the fact that He uses other people to talk to me.

Funny thing. rastus n rasmus rarely blogs, the last time i went to check. Then today, i suddenly saw one of them promoting their blog. So i went to check it out. There it was. God shouting out to me. I use to always think it is harder for those baptised as a kid, born in a Christian family to be on fire for GoD. But he proved me wrong. Totally. Besides the call from the blog that it IS possible to be able to have a great life in total reliance on God. Suddenly, Gifford from envoys started a conver on msn. Seriously, i cldnt really remember his face when he first started conver with me. Sry Gifford, my memory span is comparable to a goldfish. Anw, he’s a Christian too! And he was baptised in the same church as me St Andrew’s Ct. in the same situation. Who noes we may be baptised together coz they always do baby baptise a few at a go. And wow. He’s another Christian who is so on fire for GoD. Wow. GoD proved me wrong and shut me up from all my excuses. And i really have to thank GoD for this. I could really start to see his plan. All from the beginning, getting me to join envoys and stuff. But wait. Who know’s that may not even be the beginning, it maybe from o levels to get me into ngee ann. I have no idea. But then again, should i be surprised? Actually, not. GoD has a special plan for all of us, every single one. Is just whether we are willing to give HiM the throne of our life. To accept HiM as our lord and saviour, to bring us out of darkness everytime we fall. And give us a place in HiS kingdom for eternity.

From what i have said from above, you would be able to see that i m not sinless and i my life aint always right. That’s because it’s human nature to sin. But God has sent his Only Son, Jesus to die for us to redeem us from our sins, to always be there for us. And yes, i noe that this may piss lots of people of and i may lose friends because of what i am going to say. But this time, i wanna use GoD’s strength to give m courage to post this, to be his witness. Jesus is the ONLY way, the truth and the light to rescue use and assure us a place away from hell and in heaven. As long as you accept HiM and put HiM first place in your life, you ll see HiM working in ways you ll never expect.

Oh yar, i almost forgot to mention. GoD loves you every single one of you out there. Even if you don’t noe HiM, he still loves you. Even if you don’t love HiM, he still loves you. He’s just waiting for you. Waiting for you to accept HiM, so that he can pour out his many gifts and blessings specially meant for you.

I m not lying. Coz wad i said was not from me, but from the bible. If you ain’t convinced that the GoD that i m talking about aint real, scroll back up to read the first paragraph. Things don’t happen by coincidence, they happen for a reason. Because GoD is working. GoD is alive and living. I cant say that i noe everything bout GoD, coz i wld be lying. But i noe that He loves me and He is always there for me when i fall even when i turn my back on HiM before. He loves me and you. If you wanna noe more, add me in msn or email me ariana_02@hotmail.com or anything. If you wan reference, you can go to my links to read the ras twin blog and gifford’s blog or even add them on msn. All that is in this post is real. GoD is real.

2008-01-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

its exactly 8.51 onmy lappy and i refuse to see my other clock with most probably will show 9+.. i promise i ll start to study at 9. everyone is scaring me that exams are approaching. but is exams really approaching?? it seems still quite far leii. its next month ehh..but then again, i haven been paying much of any attention too all my classes and have been missing quite a few classes coz have been sick. i have alot to study. damn. and tmr is jap speaking test!! wahhhhhhh how!!!?!? calm down calm down.
oh no!! i went to digress.. its now 8.58. damn. no! 20.59...

i need to go.. i ll go study then come back soon...coz i really got lots of stories to tell!!

2008-01-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

so this is the horoscope thingy that has been going around all this while. so lets take a look at mine. for the fun of it. bold red will be not wrong, orange will be totally wrong and pink is okok, the rest will be no comments

CANCER WOMAN

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with youall the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have everylunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not thecase,you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. (not many ppl have seen me sad or depressed siaz..stress maybe..depressed, unlikely) Other people may think of her as 'Over-acting', or 'Over-reacting'.

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She loves money, and thinks of having 'Money' as 'happy', not as 'God'. She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk.(depends on my mood larr) Cancer woman also influenced by the 'moon', so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. (not many things larr..juz not being smart enuff and being forgotten i guess..) She fear of not being smart enough,not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy.(But even though have fear some times..but i oso quite confident de k...lol..wait..actually is not fear, is always wanna be better, spirit of EXCELENCE!!) Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting oldor broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find away to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it.(i always forget the bad stuff that has happened. i only rmb good stuff!! but not tt i wan ppl to leave me larr..is juz tt i ll forgive AND forget de..) She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally.She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of theway. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she isyour mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother inlaw will not let her own daughter being an 'Old mate'.

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are 'Work' and 'Love'. She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with no Love.

haha..k larr..not too bad.. juz that this horoscope has one major mistake. they make it seem that cancer ppl are very shy, quite, those xiao niao yi ren tt kinda girls..then lyk alwyas very paranoid, a small member in the group who doesnt voice opinions, very quite at a corner who will agree to anything and always very moody de..xiao. ariana moody. sky drop liao lo..lol..
i dont lyk the overall image of cancer and the overall image of cancer is so not me. if you just read the whole thing, the image that forms in your mind is SO NOT ME. but yet if you see alot of red color that i say is not wrong, is actually individual points.

like the first one, my mood can change very fast. true. if you make me pissed, i very fast de, but i dont really stay mad long. but i m sooo seldom depressed n emo n ... and of course i love to act, ppl always say i very drama wad..lol..

oh yarr..if i get upset, unhappy, i confirm chop chop will go out de. shopping, walk around wadsoeva. i ll definetly not go home. coz..home..if you noe me, you ll noe why. i dont like expensive stuff..true. cheap and nice, can make you happy can le wad..lol.

constant fear of many things. crazy. i so daring, where got fear de..if is the fear of not being smart enuff. is acutally, i want to be smart and i dun like to be dumb. even though i may sometimes act dumb..lol..but it's call the spirit of excellence. i fear of not being good enough so i wanna constantly improve and be better mahh..ask my proj grp mates, they ll totally understand. fat, tell me which girl doenst say she's fat. LOL. of course reassurance everyone oso wan rite..

oh yarr.. i have lots of junk tt i like to keep, coz i bu she de throw wad. everything has a story to tell. and i oso lazy to pack to see which one can throw which one can keep and where to keep.haha.

which girl doesnt sarcifice her love you with no limit, if you truely love tt person, of course will sacrifice larr..

as i have said, i m not weak, and i dun like meaningless stuff..besides, i m very logical too. i dun do dumb stuff.

and of course, i love to work. i like the sense of accomplishment!

2008-01-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

its 214 am on 20th jan. and i 'm blogging!! wad the hell am i doin?? i have no idea!! wahahaha..i m actually super super tired. but..i wanna blog. but damn. my brain aint working. i guess. i shld go to slp after all. wahahaha..church tmr!!

2008-01-15T15:35:00.000+08:00

let me blog before i proceed to doing my CIP (elearning and eportfolio) and my LMS blog post. then i can study jap before going for my test. then after i go home, do my bmgt proj. I m really trying to rush everything in order to be able to do open hse whole heartedly. and i actually just realized that bmgt only need to be handed up on nxt fri. so actually, there's not much to rush. things are more in the slow paced mode. But this also means that i have lots of studying that i need to catch up on. Oh yar, there's hom mock test tmr. and i have still have no idea how to check out and pay. the notes in mel aint v helpful either. 1 word. DIE. i wanna prac after next week, before the test. hmm.. shld email ms ho..kkz. juz mailed. back to blogging. need to study all the lectures that I havent really been paying attention to. Like bmgt, cip, and of course to study fabm and hom that have not have any common test. Crap i still owe Ms Ng my marksheet and 1 more journal. wait. did i misplace my marksheet? oh no..gotta go hm make sure its still around. Oh yarr. shld i wait for the next lecture on banquet of juz do beverage and finish up? hhmm...if wait till ltr, dunoe can finish in time or not ehh..i really really really need to study. what if my GPA drop, what if i cant make it to UNI? im in crusade room now, joyce has her friend with her. and her friend has not been accepted in any uni of all that she has applied to. DIE. how?? what if i end up like her? then again, its's not for me to plan and i shouldnt worry right, i should trust GoD. but why do I worry bout the future all the time? why do I almost always fear that I cant enter uni? contridiction all the time. my life is always about sch. damn. hiaz..i gtg..if not i ll never study for jap

2008-01-13T21:27:00.000+08:00

rui has stuff to say. lots of stuff. lots of stuff running through her mind. coz lots of things has happened that she wans to record so that she will not forget. juz tt, she dunoe what she can say and wad she cannot. and soo many things has happened that she dunoe how to start. firstly, she's not going for gen12. and she's not longer upset bout it. and she has also come to know why her DaDDy doesnt wan her to be in the ST. her understands and will try her best to wait and learn even though she is one impatient person. She knows that her parents also want the best for her and she also know that actually it is also her fauly for being so different all the time.

rui also did something that she didnt think she would do 2 days ago. She had no idea that she would say stuff that she said. Funny things just happened that way. and now rui is feeling much more comfortable and at ease after saying what she has said. rui wans to give credit to her best friend who has helped her to say such stuff even though her best friend also didnt really do much in the first place.

rui also start to realise that she is actually a v logical person despite having huge reactions to some kind of emotions. She is starting to realise that because she is so logical that can cause her to quite man at times. Also, being too logical has also caused her to lose quite some stuff..some experiences. rui just thinks too much and likes to think too much.

rui loves her friends. all her friends. and she is starting to see who are gaining importance in her life. rui is also realising that her DaDDy puts different people in her life for different reasons and she wans to thank her DaDDy soo much for them.

However, despite the fact that rui thinks alot and loves to think, rui has an area that she doesnt wan to venture into. Maybe rui thinks that by deluving into this area, she may realise that there are things that she regret in her life and that things in her life maybe largely different in she had thought through this area. But even though she doesnt want to deluve into this area, this topic has been appearing in her head quite often. Yet, rui also likes the state that she is in right now. She loves the ease and burden-less feeling she has now. in other words, rui is quite contridicting and abit confused of herself.

Other then all these stuff, rui knows that she will be very busy in the next week rushing her remainding projects and open house and struggling between studying for the upcoming exams and enjoying herself to prevent herself from getting too stressed.

rui has a last point she wants to make. rui believes in friends forever. Close friends forever. rui wans the ppl that she wans this point to be made clear be known to the ppl that should know this point. rui also wans these people to trust her that she will do anything she can that is right to make sure that what she believes will be true.

rui is going now!... ... ... ...

2008-01-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

tell me. why am i in school? i suddenly think i m doing the wrong thing. DAMN why? i dont feel like going for envoys thingy. coz in the first place, i didnt even sign up for it. DAMN. it was just thrown on me. but why didnt i just push it away? AGAIN. de javu. Again. i never ever learn from my mistakes. i never think before i agree and i can never learn how to push away. And i always end up escaping. i dont like it when i end up this way.

anw. haha.. i was writing on the bus. Back to the Peter Pan theory. If you've been talking to me or reading my blog lately, you'd understand what i am talking my...i ll cont later

2008-01-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps. Tmr is the big day. haha. not very big larr. Just that it's the last battle of our 40% war. Hopefully, things goes well. I just. after everything that's been done, and all the last minute work, i really really wanna do well. dun need to win anything, just give me an A. that's really all i pray for. Just that, i haven been the best person to work with these few days. ha! and GoD had to remind me twice in a day to trust HiM and leave everything to him. And after listening and calming myself down, i still wanna control things in my own way. man. horrible me.

And actually these few days, stress alot, thot alot. dun really like things. Never liked deja vu. Never did. Because when it happens, it means that I screw things up ALL OVER AGAIN. really. mayb not screw up, but, the same not nice stuff happened again. and i m goin to end up having to find and search again. i really dont like this feeling. but i guess, its inevitable for me.

2008-01-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

Was really pissed and disappointed earlier. Horrible. Cause the menu presentation is..um... un-presentable, as compared to all the other menu from other groups. Damn. It was kinda like, i felt that they misused my trust. I believed that they would do a gd job, and yarr..sure, their content was great. BUT the menu presentation sucked. Big time. Then, to rescue the menu and to get our whole proposal printed NICELY, i missed macro tutorial. Yarrr...ARIANA PONNED A TUTORIAL. And macro. Of all modules, my fav macro. It wouldn’t be really suprising if i missed cip. But macro..wow. so guess the total cost of my project. $18.50 PER PERSON. Cool rite. But at least the report is nice, and almost well done. The menu saved from hell but not from disgrace.( at least the content is great). Right now, i m more worried bout something else. PRESENTATION. Damn. My proposal will now be depended on my presentation. But, it looks sucky. Really. But then again, i HAVE to trust GoD. Coz if i don’t, all hope is gone.
Oh yarr, i have jap test next wk. Worried worried worried. Coz i haven’t been memorising anything. I mean, i understand and i noe the grammer and stuff. But, i m not very good at the vocab. I have never been gd at vocab for any language anw. LOL. So yupps, that’s all that has happened in a hetic day of my mon. I have made it seem better that it was. I was really really pushy and bossy and really not being very nice today. Just ask my proj mates. I m sure they ll be glad to explain.
Cheers!

2008-01-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

i am not doing work even though i know i have tons to do. but i m not doin. and i m starting to fear for my gpa now. but i m not doin work!! but i will. later. damn. i really fear that i m unable to score As for these modules. I m really freaked out that my GPA will drop. I dont even Think bout being top student or whatsoeva. Now i m just scared that my gpa this sem would cause me to be unable to go into Uni.

damn. i hate it..........zzzzzzzzzz

have you ever wondered, why is it that all the popular shows are all on relationships and romance. Its like the core of every show! damn. then they just change the problem in the relationship and edit the environment. then voila! you have another drama series. man. it sucks. right now, to me, it sucks big time.

2008-01-04T20:24:00.000+08:00

Philosophical ariana is back. Trust me. I ve got lots of things to say. Firstly, on ytd’s lm. Dr Diu was talking bout love. Ha.funny topic to be talking about these days, especially since it has really kinda be the topic that has been surrounding me these few days.Dr Diu started of by the love of people. People’s love being very conditional. Dont you think so. When people choose their life long partners, they choose ppl that are more suitable that fits their criteria. For example, this guy likes this gal for her looks. But what if she becomes disfigured due to an accident? Will he still love her? So tell me what’s unconditional love? This thing puzzled me. Got me confused for quite a while. I was thinking, does that mean that if you have unconditional love, you ll juz totally love that person for no reason? But then again is there a reason for love? But after all the messed up questions, i got it. FINALLY. True unconditional love is to know someone and truely accepts and love him/her just the way he is. Is that even possible between mankind? So what bout me? You know, i m dumb, i love to argue. I love to whine. I have inferiority and superiority complex both at the same time. And i m growing fatter by the minute. Is there anyone that can know me, know my heart and still love me for who i am? i know 5 at the moment. Rather son and holy spirit, my human mum and my human dad. But anyone else? Its still a mystery to me. And you see this. I ll only love someone that truely accepts me. But then again, i may not. Ha. I m so contradicting today. Anyway, back to the fact. Human’s love is just dirty.So just imagine how filthy our love for God is.Isnt it so? If God gives you what you want, you love him abit more. If you disobey and cause problems for yourself and then think that its is God’s fault you ll love him less. Its our sinful human nature. You cant change it.
So, ultimately its not bout our love for each other or our love for God. It’s GoD’s love for us! Its the pureset and ever lasting. Nothing that we can do, or nothing that we don’t do can make God love us less. But then again, funny ppl like me would like to think. That also means that nothing we can do or nothing that we don’t do will make God love us more. Then again, funny me would also like to know, does God loves every single one of us equally? Or does he have favourites? Like Mozilla or IE, we have the favourites list. Does God have our names stored like that then clicks on one that he likes to check out how they are doin? But then again, its not for me to say..lol..But no matter what, i know that God truely loves me and his love for me is pure.

Next, i ll like to talk about a good hair stylist. Right now, i m in a hair salon that has only bad hair stylist but there’s nothing that i can do about it. Coz its not for me to choose. It’s free and the person who pays is the one who choose. I m just a follower. But that doesn’t mean i cant comment. Right now, i think my hair is in a mess, but it doesn’t really matter coz it has always been a mess anyway. Not much of a loss for me. Ppl who are close around me should know by now that i love to change and play around with me hair. So it’s just something different. But bak to the topic on Good hair sty;ist. I believe that good hairstylist doesn’t ask you what hair style do you want .But they would suggest to you what style suits you most accordingto the fashion. He should shove you a hairstyle book for you to choose. IThat’s an irresponsible hair stylist. Dont you think so. It’s like the hair stylist would just cut according to the book and style you choose. If in the end it looks bad on you, he or she would just say, oh, you chose it, i just cut according to what you want. Its not MY faul it looks bad. Argh. That’s why i have always love to go to a hair salon that can suggest a good hair style for me. But so far, i haven found any hair salon that has fit my requirement. But i don’t think that there are no such hair salons. Its just that i m not rich enough to go to those good and professional hair stylist. But nvm, i m ok with my current situation. Coz bad hair styles is unique. Not everyone can do it! haha..i got stop. I wanna do work later!!

2008-01-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

blogging now..after a whole day of the first day in sch. mixed feelings i guess. its great to see my friends once again. realize that i miss them quite abit. and they, i noe and i hope, will be playin a huge role in my life. then again, my sec sch friends will be graduating next year when i m still only in yr2,yr3. which means i ll be kinda like lac one year. its abit..how to say.. i guess i m abit insecure by the fact that they will experience something before me. as in, i dont mind tt they experience something different, liky poly jc. but i guess its still abit hard for me to adapt that they will be better then me as they would know more than me. i guess, i still cant get over superority complex. As humble as i try to be, i still like to know more. i think its less of being better, coz i noe sooooooo many people who are better then me in sooo many different ways. and lots of ppl who noe more stuff then me. but, i juz dunoe why. i like to know more. always had, and i guess, maybe always will.

juz finished reading DTF. actually, i haven been listening to every single episode. but i kinda noe the overall story. really touching. but, i just seems too beautiful, very make believe. i really dunoe what to expect or what to wish for. coz, meta kinda changed my opinion on some stuff. so it has really blurred me up. then there's also this tv programme frm last wk.
nian2 qing1 shi2, yao4 jie4 se4. in eng, it means that the one thing that youngersters should abstain/avoid etcetc, is love/lust/romance/BGR..etcetc. i guess, at the age of 17 goin on 18, (the age that when i was a 5, i asked my dad, how old do i need to be to have a bf, the age my gd ol' daddy said)18. the age where ppl always noes there will be a huge change. inner and outer. the age where you can change for the gd, or for the bad. where you can get your drving liscense, watch m18 movies, purchase alcohol Legaly, even go clubbing. Funny how it is that they allow us to do more "bad stuff" as we grow older.

frm my point of view, its stressful to grow up (this is coming frm a gal who wishes to by like peter pan). the older we grow, the more choices we get, the more decisions we have to make. And they also always say that the type of decisions we make shows our matuarity.
But to me, sometimes, i ll rather you not give me a choice. i ll rather you limit me. yes, its the lazy way, but on the other hand, its the way that i ll be safe. i ll be right.

And dont you say that i m this freak that is just trying to escape. Its just that i show it openly, and others dont. really. many others have this kinda feeling too. not liking to make choices. Why do you think ppl love to say the word "anything lar". its this popular phrase that allows this brand of canned drink to be so popular. by buying a can of anything, it saves you the trouble of thinking, and prevents yourself for being blamed because you can never make the wrong choice because it wasnt YOU who made the choice. aint i right?

but then again, all this crap above is written by a gal in denial of growing up and not wanting to welcome the new year coz she wants to be like peter pan.

so..i think it is better for me not to go into uni before my friends. then, i get to grow up slower..
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhhh......惡作劇2吻!!惡作劇2吻!!惡作劇2吻!!惡作劇2吻!!!!!!!!! i wan i wan i wan i wan!!! oh mann...i love the show...its gonna be super super nice larr..how?? should i watch weekly and go emo the rest of the wk while waiting for it to come out..or shld i test my patience and wait till the dvd comes out..to watch all at one go. but then again, will have spoilers coz ppl ard me will definetly spoil it..i noe..so how??but by the time its ends, its lyk next term's hols. ard june hols lyk tt..then i can chiong everything. but....how???

zzzz...ppl give me suggestions can??

2007-11-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

yes, very long never blog le. have been busy...with..........RED CAMP!!! apache oei!!! haha..

love apache. got alot of things of red camp to blog bout, but right now, its not the time. Coz, i m lyk 10 minutes away from my cip presentation. so why am i bloggin? i have no idea. haha..to calm nerves?? haha..after cip, i wan go do my bmgt!! i really wanna do my bmgt and finish it. its really nagging at the back of my head!! after i completed bmgt, i ll be able to go watch movie on fri..and i can study larr..haha

anw, its now just before dance, i had this window opened since cip. Its now over le..was not too bad bahh..juz had DG with 3 additional ppl!! shaine, clare n belinda. we were doin CE..

haha..change of thoughts again, coz its now 11.10 and i m at hm le..zzzz i reallt should do BMGT rite...eeeeee v sian lorr..alot to do. but then again, i have alot of time tmr!! lol..if i can finish it tmr i ll go watch enchanted on fri!!i really really really wanna finish bmgt soon. but so why am i bloggin and not doin???

2007-11-21T10:07:00.000+08:00

haha..i said before rite. once lessons start and back on track, i ll start to blog more.haha..just see lorr. after my hol break, i blog so much more in nov..haha..

today's red camp!!!!!!! cooollllllll.......i didnt bring my red camp shirt larr...coz my bag already have so much stuff...sian..i really should have brought lorr..wahhhhhh..........
then i forgot that my class start at 930. i reach sch at 830 larr..so went with choo to go crash redcamp awhile..looks SUPER cool super fun lorr...cant wait to go..sad larr..nvr bring my shirt..

wahh..its alrdy 1020..gotta pack..gonna go le...
for SA outreach..coolll

this happens every fortnightly.....

2007-11-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DAMN. I NOE I SHLDNT BE LYK THIS, BUT IS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUSTRATING...

its almost lyk a weekly or monthly routine. and i still dont get it. i lyk it just the way it is. i really..argh. fine. it shouldne tbe lyk tt, but i m ok with it, i m comfortable with it . so?

why is it that everything has to be so freaked up neat? so what if i take a longer, much longer time? that s because i have different piorities. and it just happens that being neat ISNT ON THE TOP OF MY LIST. so ? big deal. and you have to scream you lungs out. and you are sick. cant even take care of your own body. i dont understand y do you wanna get mad over such stuff? yarr, you say that you have been controlling, that you have been sayin..say that since i noe, why cant i do it, why do i wanna make you blow. but HELLO, i dont mean to. i just dont think the same way!...zzzzzzz..............argh...........

but yes, i will clean up my room , will pick up my stuff. coz no matter what, i still have to honor you even though i sometimes disagree..violently disagreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

wahh..affirmation. haha..GoD must be thinkin..that blur blur ariana..always canot hear me de..dunoe if she got my msg or not..better say one more time..haha!! lol..jkjk..

but yarr..i think sometimes i do close my ears and cover my eyes that i dont know that GoD has a message for me..haha..but this time..i got it. i got it..haha..i guess being quieter at times and not talkin so much you can hear more. haha..yes...i ll go i ll go..i ll take this chance to be used by GoD..i ll go for Gen12ii..juz tt i still have no idea where ta go..DaDDy really shld tell me all at once and not make me think too much of where to go..i alrdy have so much white hair le lorr..wahahaha..

today i went for 2 services..back to back. frm 9-11 then 11-1..haha..but with different ppl..but love them all the same haha..miss jess though..she nvr seat with tess n me...but nvm.at least i had a chat with her b4 we went in. then 11 was chi service. hmm..communion service is abit diff frm the last time i went. But i still more used to end version lar..haha..but anw, i got free lunch..haha..and MOF..haha..love jap food..had a totally fun time. laugh non-stop.. and its lyk have the feelin of gg for lunch with my gorgor n jiejie lyk tt..haha..then again, they ARE my gorgor n jiejie..haha..funny larr..Thanks fer the lunch siaz..even though i noe i was abit off..got things on my mind..but thanks for all the help too!!haha.. hope you guys had fun after i left..haha..

can see that me in a gd mood rite...
wanna noe why??
wahahahaha...CIP PBL proposal is 65% done!!yay!!!!!!!! woohoo!!! lalalalala...and my grp has also finished preparing for macro article tmr..haha..
then again, i still have FaB journal not done yet..and alot of other stuff not done yet..haha..but luckily, its only 2030..i still have time...

2007-11-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

yupps.. thank GoD for jamesK. haha..my brother in christ, so can call gor..haha..i seriously think that DaDDy loves to use gor ta tell me stuff. Lyk last time when i was drifting and kinda lost, down spiritually after a leap, he sent jamesK ta give me a nice reprimanding and an inspirational talk. i think even jamesK has forgot bout tt. so then, went ta yhope, say things at a different light. i think i grew and saw quite alot even though i didnt stay long. and his blog nvr fails to inspire. haha..even though he is right, i may not know what he s thinkin when he blogs, but its always pushes me on spritually. haha..even though i noe lots of ppl say his blog v christiany and stuff..gettin weird..but i wanna say Great Job, coz that's not weird but being the salt and light.

haha..so yupps, ytd, went ta read gor's blog. really hit me. GoD loves to use his blog to tell me stuff. lol..yes. if i could i would. i ll go for Gen12ii. i ll stop procrastinating. i ll stop giving excuses. i ll use this chance to experience GOD's love..and grow up. now the thing is to wait for GoD's command to tell me Where to go.

2007-11-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

i owe my ahma an apology. really i m sorry. I guess, i really aint as open as you, as open as i thought. but then again, it was only you. But then, haha, you know what, you aint the first one. anki and i had been thru this before. and it ended fine. haha. and now, i thank GoD that we are gonna end fine. and it s really your effort. ur patience for me ta open up. i think fer me, some ppl i click v fast, then feel too fast, will abruptly stop de..kinda lyk anki and ya. but fer me is lyk natural, cant really stop. with me and anki, we both juz drifted, grew closer ta other friends, then got back. haha..but fer ya, i feel really bad fer sayin this, but i felt at tt moment, you were kinda sticky. yarr...sorry...but now, thank GoD fer everything lar..haha..sorry fer being so weird..oh yarr..thanks fer crapping today. really needed tt stress relieve..haha..

i m usually NOT lyk tt

2007-11-07T14:52:00.000+08:00

i aint in a gd mood AT allllllllllllllllllllll.............heavy day after a heavy night..
had a nice long talk last night. very thought provoking.. but still..i guess, many people are very different when their alone and when they are with others. and, ppl really do tend to have thoughts that we never know that they would have. you really really cant judge a book by its cover..somtimes things are hidden sooooo deep you never know what it is..
juz made me think that i may have done really wrong stuff to make ppl feel really bad. and i had actually been angry over things that i dun even have a right to be angry over. and me actually... and...made me think...hiazzzzzzzz.........

and..ytd and today got few ppl chatted and talked to me online..hate it..i know i shouldnt use that word n i aint allowed to..but seriously. i hate it..and...i mean, i dont hate it when ppl talk to me. coz i love talkin to people. and i love to talk. but, ytd and juz now was when something juz keep appearing..arghh...i really dont like it...suddenly i feel lyk juz digging a whole and hiding in there for a long long long long time...arghh....luckily for me, i aint got any sch today.........

call me??

2007-11-06T10:55:00.000+08:00

i m waiting for bmgt tutorial to start..doin presentation. kinda crappy, but nvm, juz give me my marks. haha..today, went for prayer meeting, 7am as usual, but apparently , we keep reachin later and later. you can see from where we sit. from the first time right inside, to the middle to sitting at the door more often. haha.. i love the fact of spending time with GoD first thing in the morn and eating breakfast with my fellow Crusaders..haha..

yay..presentation over..all the shooting is over...she keep asking and shooting as qns larr..nvm..ask all you want, juz give me the marks i need can already. haha..the grp for bmgt is up me ned jiawen yaowei donovan..great. can start doin proj alrdy. and i think actually, bmgt proj quite easy. as in, as compared to the dreaded CIP..eeeeeeeeee.......i need to outsource...i need help.!!!!!!!!!

oh yarr..had a nice little chat with my crusade snr in the morn...wads wrong with sJ??i love it ok..i love to sJ. its my entertainment in life lorr..so one of my criteria for my stead nxt time (as learnt for BMGT juz now) has to be able to tahan my sJing..wahahaha.. so that means i have to ditch someone..but nvm larr..he wun feel hurt. coz he has ml wad....LOL..wahahahahahahahahaha

2007-11-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

just give me another 5 minutes. i ll really just stay for 5 mins..then i ll go do my tutorials...
really not in the mood. dunoe why. there 's somthing wrong. and i dunoe what is it...damnnnnnnn

i think i starting to spot the similarities. i start to go moody or i dunoe when i m not ard ppl fm sch. be it sec sch or poly. its the same. reason?

i dunoe larrrrrrrrrrrrr.......

i really dun like to be an only child at times like this when i start to think too much even though i have so many other things to think about........

2007-11-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

read che's blog, and i m back to post. she 's in the being alone mood. which i think is really lyk the opposite of what i m feeling now. damn, i shld go do work. coz i have lots to do and many things to organise and take responsibility of. but noooo...here am i bloggin. why? coz i dun wan ta juz go slp now. it would really be great if someone just picks up the phone now and call me. and juz talk. i m really in a listening me..not in a talking mood. juz noe-ing that ppl are around..i dunoe larrrrrrrrrr...........zzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

and lyn's kinda ignoring me..why? and she s in that total emo and weird off state. lyk something big happened. or at least alot of things happened to accumulate to her current state. i wanna be a gd friend to be there for her as she has been there for moi..but, if she doesnt wanna talk bout it, i guess i cant do anything bout it then. juz let her be bahh..juz that she eva needs someone, she has lots of us ard her..

a possiblility that the great ol' ariana is thinking too much coz she misses her darlyn too much and starts to think silly..which of course is juz highly possible larrrr..haha..

juz..i dunoe. i guess i juz have to cont let GoD do his work and stop complaining before i see the fruits of HiS labour..

2007-11-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

what's 缘份? in other words, fate. as in seriously, are christian's allowed to believe in that?
i still dun know yet. so lets use bgr as an example, the guy and gal yao you 缘份 then will be together? can we say that? or what??i m still blur...nvm then..

anw, that's just a long term unans-ed qns..nvm bout it..

anw, i think i have lost my panasonic earphones. the one that i really lyk..even though the wire is abit shorter..after packing my table, i still cant find it..damn.

i starting to not like my post. its so short and disconnected..dunoe what ta say...
lyk nothing to say, but yet, lyk..dunoe..dun wan be alone? wait, what does that have to do with bloggin. bloggin IS talkin alone wad.me getting dumber each day!! wheeeeee.........maybe i should go to ech. fits me rite. stay with dumb ppl.. make the next generation dumb with me..wahahaha. and i m childish enuff to fit with them. and i have exposure to it. hmm..should i change course?

2007-11-01T10:25:00.000+08:00

i m in class now. feel very bad for doin this coz i love FaB..ms ng IS a gd tcher..but, i think, i wanna write abit of stuff..suddenly, i got sooo much stuff to do, its horrible. The day the JC ppl start their hols, is like the day i get all my projs..And i have so much work to do.. i haven even started studying yet. i feel so slack, its bad. and i have slacking in lectures, not paying attention. and bmgt with joshie-S aand danielK in my Lt, i dun pay attention, i Cant even pay attention.lol..man...this is scary. Ms ng is playing Bingo for the groupings. she is scary siaz...

2007-10-31T10:02:00.002+08:00

omg..now i finally noe where all my posts has been eaten to. it all went into the LMS blogg..dumb..

so had to transfer everything back to the correct blog..haha..so that explains for the flooding of a few posts at one go..haha.

2007-10-31T10:02:00.001+08:00

wahhhhhhhhh.........i just checked out my lappy's memeory space..wanna cry le larrrrr......you noe when i bought the lappy, it was suppose to have 120GB, but coz of all the programme and stuff, i only have 100GB. So that's lyk 20GB eaten up. Now i check all my files and the space in my lappy, i have bout almost 10GB eaten up~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahhhhhhh.........10GB lei!!! do you know how much space is that...oh mannn....i m lyk super tempted to reformat my whole lappy. see whether it ll free up the space and clear the hidden files..damn...and i have alot of work not done before the start of class...oh mannnnn............i dont lyk what i am now.........

again........

2007-10-31T10:01:00.001+08:00

damn. i haven studied for jap test. but i cant be bothered anyway. i shall let shandy rescue me..haha.. i love crusade. and i love the room. wheeeeee.....i really want ta blog. but i gotta go...damn.

~=**[with faith comes hope]**=~

Buff bad boy

this happens every fortnightly.....

i m usually NOT lyk tt

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